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Mums primary site is in her Messetary and this has sadly metastesised into her Liver :( they cannot operate and take it out due to the location of the primary site, this seems to be pretty unaccesable, so that was a bit of a big blow to us.
The tumour does not seem to have grown in the past 3 months so we are hoping that this is a good sign?
It has been classed as a grade 2 tumour, so is moderatley slow growing, not as good as a grade 1 but I suppose we have to be thakful it wasnt a...
Hi everyone,
Thanks for your questions.
I hope the last blog was useful and helped answer some of your questions.
Two questions today:
Dee82 – “Hi, my granda was diagnosed with stage 3 non small cell lung cancer 4 years ago, hes been amazing and is still on pretty low pain relief. He is now wasted away to nothing and is only eating once a day to keep my gran happy, although you can't comment on individual cases. How do we recognize the final stage? What should we expect? His docs...
so, found out yesterday that i'm going to have IV chemo, not directly into my bladder as i was originally told. bit of a shock and not looking forward to the side effects, at least i only have 3 cycles over 9 weeks. off to have a 'demistify chemo' meeting at the hospital this evening and lou has agreed to come with me, need to get her involved so she can accept whats happening. once i can get her to accept it then perhaps i will be able to as well
Well, how ma I feeling pretty crap if I am honest, 2 months ago we were told the most devestaing news your mum is going to die, and it will pretty quick.
Then a month later we were told its not in fact metastic bowel cancer as originall thought but a NUROENDOCRINE cancer?! and its pretty rare and we cannot do anything locally?! and that is well defined and slow growing.
So we get sent on another emotional rollercoaster, what to think? what plans can we make? how long do we have all of these questions...
News report
In the latest round of the heavyweight fight at the CT scan arena, the judges decided to award the round to Brooksie (yippee!). After a VERY long deliberation, as Larry from Shitesville (boo, hiss) had not spread his evil little tentacles anywhere else, the judges agreed that the score should now be even. Brooksie's management said "Ninewells staff really need to get their fingers out of their asses, to wait 8 days for a result is not acceptable - they obviously don't realise how much...
had a frank discussion with Lou, my other half,last night and i don't think she appreciated my brutal honesty. she asked how i was and i suddenly opened up about how crap iwas feeling, how i hated what was happening, what is going to hapen. how everything is affecting me, her and our kids. she started to get a bit arsy with me because she didn't think i knew how it was hurting her and how she was feeling down about it as well. i understand how she's feeling but there is nothing anyone can do to stop...
the kids are back from nannys today and so i have something to keep me occupied, when they're around i can put all the crap to the back of my mind. still can't accept whats going on and what is going to happen in the future but as there's nothing i can do to change it then eventually i guess i will have to.
I have an issue with time! (She says looking at the time, 11.40pm and having only just started typing when she has to get up at 6am for work!) I have always had a problem with time, all those long days sat in school looking out of the window and wishing I was elsewhere turned me into a bit of a daydreamer, or maybe it was just in my nature to sit and dream. Whatever, it became a habit to sit and think of much more pleasant things than the 8 times tables, a habit that followed me into later life....
Well mum had her scans and radioactive injections!
She said the hospital in Oxford were fabulous so helpful curtious, didnt feel rushed or out of place.
Mum has said she is worried the cancer is everywhere, in her brain lungs etc, although surely her CT scan would ahve shown a massive spread especially as this is apparently a slow growing cancer? So now she also has me worried!
She seems ok, came with us for a walk to the forest with the children managed to push my younger daughter in her pushchair...
i hate what 'c' is doing to me
i hate what 'c' is taking from my family
it's taken cuddles from my other half,
it's taken relaxing in a nice hot bath,
it's taken the freedom to jump on my bike,
it's taken me away from a job that i like.
it's going to take more as time goes by
bits from inside, though i don't know why
what have i done to deserve this curse
i know it really could be a lot worse
