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  • Chapter 19 — Ten Quiet Days

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    It's been ten days since I last wrote one of these. Ten days is a long gap by my standards over the last few months, and I think that gap actually tells its own story. When there's less to write about, less drama to process, that's usually a sign thi...

  • Chapter 18 — Another Week in Castle Hill

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    There is a particular kind of frustration that must only exists in hospitals. It isn't the frustration of pain, or fear, or uncertainty — though all of those are present too. It's the frustration of a system that is simultaneously extra...

  • Chapter 17 — The Price of the Cheat Code

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    Nobody told me it would feel like someone was slicing my penis in half. That's not the kind of thing that appears in the immunotherapy leaflets. The leaflets talk about fatigue and flu-like symptoms. They mention, in passing, that some patients ...

  • Chapter 16 — The Cheat Code

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    Tuesday 26th May. Immunotherapy day. We arrived at the Queens Centre at Castle Hill Hospital just before nine. I’d been asked to come in for nine, so being half an hour early felt like the right approach — keen, prepared, ready. We headed...

  • Chapter 15 - Last Weekrnd

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    There’s a particular kind of weekend that exists in cancer treatment — the last one before everything changes. The weekend before the first infusion. The weekend where you still feel like yourself, where the drugs haven’t arrived ye...
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