Hi Everyone,
Just thought I'd write something on here with regards to my Brother's illness. He has liver cancer, he lives in Auckland and I live in the UK. He was diagnosed in April 2019 and has just moved into a hospice after being in and out of hospital for a few weeks. He's 47, I'm 5 years older, we are best mates even though we are so far away from eachother, I was always going to be there for him when he needed me, it's only a day's flight. Then Covid 19 turned up and I'm in the high risk category, not shielded but just have to be a bit careful, so I shouldn't really fly, anyway there are no flights that connect and I would have to spend 2 weeks in isolation in a hotel when I get there and then another 2 weeks when I returned, so its fairly impossible to get out there at the moment when he would really love to see me.
We regularly video call but I can never really think of much to say, I feel so guilty telling him that I'm decorating or digging the garden because I think it would make him feel even worse, so I dont tell him! Should I do you think? I have a constant sad feeling in the pit of my stomach that wont go away. My mum is 80 and has overcome so much herself in the past 15 years, such a strong woman but I fear that this will push her over the edge. We try and shield her from how bad he is but I'm now not sure that was the right thing to do, as the shock will be worse when he finally loses his battle, such a difficult situation.
I'd appreciate any thoughts or guidance anyone could offer at this difficult time.
Take care all and stay safe.
