Losing my husband

FormerMember
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My husband has just been diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer. Cancer has spread to his bones and brain. Outlook is probably a few short months if we are lucky...it may be weeks 

2.5 months ago he was working! It is all happening so fast  

I am a senior nurse so sadly I know whats ahead and Im terrified. 

I'm losing my partner of 32 years. Next month is our 30th wedding anniversary

Im lost and cant imagine life without him. The house feela so wrong. 

Night times are the worst as if I manage to sleep the pain of remembering when I wake up is awful. 

He has been in hospital for the last 4 weeks and Im njot sure I will be able to get him home but I will try my best 

At rimes his personality is changing he says nasty things I know it is the cancer talking but it still hurts and its so hard on my children ( 22 and 23) if he does it to them. I dont want their memories of their dad to be this! 

I am struggling so so much and Im so scared to face the future alone 

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Sooo v saddened to read your heartfelt post & the v difficult time you & ur family are experiencing.

    thinking of u all & sending love & hugs x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hello Lmr.  I was just wondering how things are with you and your husband? I've only just seen your post and it hit home with me.  

    In July my husband was diagnosed with a brain tumour, then we were told that it was a secondary and that it stemmed from his lung.  Stage 4 Lung Cancer. Nobody will commit to time scales so we just take a day at a time, and yet I feel we need to know what we are up against. I know I'm losing him, he also has COPD, which is making him weaker still. It's just a horrid, horrid place to be just now, and so I feel your pain. My thoughts are with you both. X