My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

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My husband - Chris - died on the 2nd May 2009 because he had anal cancer. He knew he was going and we spoke about lots and lots of things before he died. That is why I am just not prepared for the huge amount of guilt I feel now. I feel guilty that the world hasn't stopped turning round even though he has died. I feel like everything should stop as a mark of respect. I also feel very guilty that he had to be so ill he had to die. What a cruel cruel thing it is to make someone so ill their body just stops working. I wasn't ready for him to go. I really really hope these are normal feelings because I must hang on to my sanity for the sake of my 3 children. I have never known sadness like I feel right now. I can't believe that I will not hear his voice or feel his touch again. We were married for almost 32 years and I have known Chris for 34 years - since I was 16. What happens now? Ailsa

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    Great big (((((('angel' penguin hugs)))))) for everyone x x x Keep smiling if you can. If today is too hard for the smiles then just hold the thought in your mind, that you have lots of friends on here who care how you are and how you are feeling. The tissues are over in the corner, there is an abundant supply because I got a job lot when I explained to the man that they were for a special group of people who need lots of TLC.

    Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

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    Hi all

    just popped on to wish you  all a great weekend dont get to drunk lol

    love to you all

    take care love janice xxxxx

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    I saw you all setting off for the great penguin party, so just popped on to wish you all a wonderful time and safe travels.

    Napoleon   xx

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    aahhh sue that is brill picture lol

    love janice xxxx

     

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    Afternoon lovely ladies, just wanted to wish you all a safe and wonderfull weekend.
    My love and (((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))
    Quill xxxxxxxxxx

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    Thank you guys

    Don't think for one minute that just because you aren't there we won't be thinking of you all, I have to be completely honest and say that I am not 100% sure who is goin to be there.  But Sue, Quill, Dottee, Janice, Rosemary, Patricia (I'm hoping!), Dave, Bren, Hazel, Teri and everyone else who understands that penguins are good for each other. 

    Oops, am at work, should be concentrating ..... but it's Friday and I just want the weekend to start.

    Love Judi xxx 

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    Thank you lovely ladies xx Fantastic picture as always xxxx

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    Evening everyone.  I can't believe this weekend is finally here.  Sue the picture is lovely.  You & Dave, Rosemary, Quill, Dot, Hazel, Janice, Bren, Teri (please don't let me have forgotten anyone) will be with us tomorrow.  I just hope I can sleep tonight.  Still need to pack but will do it after I have ironed.  Lynne the x-factor pictures are great.  Have a good evening everyone.  Ailsa xxx

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    ((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))) to you all - Have a lovely weekend away xxx  It will be sooooooo quiet without you here......but I'm looking forward to hearing all about it!!!!!!!

    Love and (((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))) to comfort those of us left behind   Dot xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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    Thanks everyone for the good wishes. We will be sure to raise a glass to you all and of course be thinking about our absent friends.

    Ailsa, sounds like we have had the same evening, ironing then packing! I feel a bit tired, have felt a little down today for some reason. I keep trying to remember that I sometimes felt down before Colin died, tend to blame every little thing on that one event. Glad to be away  this weekend with all my lovely friends, I am sure you will all make me smile.

    Love and hugs to everyone else, speak to you all on Sunday.

    xxxxxx Lesley xxxxx