My husband - Chris - died on the 2nd May 2009 because he had anal cancer. He knew he was going and we spoke about lots and lots of things before he died. That is why I am just not prepared for the huge amount of guilt I feel now. I feel guilty that the world hasn't stopped turning round even though he has died. I feel like everything should stop as a mark of respect. I also feel very guilty that he had to be so ill he had to die. What a cruel cruel thing it is to make someone so ill their body just stops working. I wasn't ready for him to go. I really really hope these are normal feelings because I must hang on to my sanity for the sake of my 3 children. I have never known sadness like I feel right now. I can't believe that I will not hear his voice or feel his touch again. We were married for almost 32 years and I have known Chris for 34 years - since I was 16. What happens now? Ailsa
Hi Janice, looks and sounds like they are having a fabulous time - and by several text reports everyone is lovely.... of course! xxxx
Love the picture Sue! Thought it was my computer at first that couldn't pick up the whole thing lol!
Are all you tired penguins home and safe now? Love the photo's and glad you all had a lovely time, have you left Newcastle able to settle back down again? Bet they wondered what had landed when you lot got going.
Well Sam had a wonderful night away with Wayne (kept texting me to let me know she was enjoying herself and how much wine she had drunk) and then..... he got down on one knee...... and asked her if she would make him the happiest man in the world and do him the honour of becoming his wife! Oh my goodness, one very happy bunny (Daniel however is having a mental breakdown) and she said yes. I think I'm pleased, they aren't going to rush into anything, she has her course to do first and to get a job, so plenty of time to really get to know each other properly and be sure that this is the right thing - at the moment they are both head over heels in love it seems. They have been talking to each other online for 7 1/2 months and he has been home from Germany 6 1/2 weeks now, so I don't know, is it too soon? Sometimes you just know it's right don't you.
Back later xxxxxx
Hello from another very tired penguin,
Had a fantastic time meeting up with all you lovely ladies (and we raised a glass to our absentee penguins). The hotel was lovely, food was great and the company was the best. Hope everyone got home safely.
Rosemary, what great news. Like Lynne says lifes too short.
Well I am off as I am sooo tired. Take care everyone.
Gayle xx
Hi Esme
I only knew Bert for 3 months when we married much to everyon's disgust but we lasted 29 years unfortunately that came to an abrupt end. So if your daughter and her partner feel it is right then I say go for it. So long as they are prepared to take the rough with the smooth I am sure ther will be loads of happy times ahead.
Love Teri
Hi, my penguins
so glad that you all had such a lovely weekend; the photos said it al! Lynne, i'd have loved to have seen the blokes' faces when you told them why you were all meeting! Not funny, but funny!!!!!
did you have sunshine - or didn't you notice? it's been glorious here, so have made several trips to the cemetery. my girlies cooked for me today - they made 2 flans, one with tomato, brie and courgette, and the other with red onion , feta cheese and olives. Yum! I also received flowers and jewellery - all in all a good day.
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I m home and tired but had a great time. Lovely to meet everyone xxx
Rosemary thats lovely news, i echo what has already been said life is too short and like you say I think you just know sometimes.
Julie welcome from me too xxx
We ll definitely have to do it again and hopefully meet everyone else
Night everyone
Helen xxx
Hi Sue, yes the weather was lovely but didnt get the penguins out jogging in it lol
I ve been to in laws for my tea when I got back, Mum in law bought me a card and a cake. I got flowers and choccies off Liam and Nat. Spoilt xxx
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