Hi all. Im 18months into losing My darling wife Anne from pancreatic cancer. Im 75. And since then I've been able to some what converse and associate with friends and people affectively, albeit much of the time behind the smile of the clown. However more recently I lost a fellow widower close friend to a stroke just before the recent strict lock down. We bounced off of each other so well, he having lost his wife a few months before Anne. Now, two other close friends in our street and in my bubble as carers are moving away. They've been so kind to me throughout. Im now left with one other widower mate a few houses away but I dont really click with him like the others albeit by phone now due again to the lock down. What Im noticing is Im slowly retreating into myself. Its an effort to communicate with anyone these days even with acquaintances on FB, plus one true friend whom I communicate regularly with through Facebook Messanger. I no longer want commitments. The bottom line is I havnt the energy for anyone anymore. And so despite the lock down Im gradually retreating into myself. Withdrawing from the world. HAS ANYONE else experienced this?
