I was fortunate enough to get to go to my uncles funeral today. I was really only going to view him being taken in the crem because of the restrictions but my cousin insisted he wanted me to go in.
I was really fond of my uncle and I wanted to say goodbye properly but also a bit scared. I was proud that I managed it without breaking down too much. Only the photos display did I struggle with and seeing the hearse. But I did it. I was glad to have my brother there, he is practical, not one for tears and I needed that.
I feel like I have got over another hurdle. It was also the anniversary of my other uncles death today, he also died of lung cancer. I also got a great big hug from my cousin and funnily enough I really needed that hug. The week has been hard because of the idiot who is now being nice to me! Mixed messages!!!
I was also very proud of myself going to the gym. I have a fantastic fitness plan which will also strengthen my hips. And I really enjoyed it. Going to go 2 or 3 days a week and be a new me or even just me!!!
Also had a great on line chat to my aunty who is actually only 6 years older than me and now lives in Spain. I am going to visit her when this is all over. We have always been close, I never made it to Holland when she lived there and life is too short to miss opportunities.
So a sad but good day
Love and hugs Alison xxx
Sounds like your day was busy and you have got over quite a few hurdles with the help of family and friends at your uncle's funeral. Hugs are great aren't they, whether they're allowed or not!!
I like the sound of our 'new' Alison 
keep it going at the gym (me next), stay away from the player (don't be too quick to reply to his mixed messages!!) And go to Spain whe you're allowed!!
Lotsalove x
