Hello everyone. I would like to share some experiences I have had over the last few months, all unsettling and anxiety provoking. It would be interesting if anyone else has experienced this.
My wife and I did nearly everything together particularly shopping or going out in the car I drove since Lynn didn’t drive due to a mild brain injury. These days shopping usually starts well, such as picking up my trolley then entering the store. So far so good. My eyes scan for Lynn’s physical presence around me or down the aisle out of habit, then I get hit by a wave of grief and intense loneliness as the reality sinks in. I’m on my own. Lynn’s gone. The sadness is indescribable my eyes well up with tears, but I realise I have to get used to it moving forward. Does anyone instinctively look for their wife/husband/partner when out and about? My feelings are made worse when people around me are with their spouses.
Peter
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I know what you mean. When I see some1 wandering around like I do at times I wonder if their partner is at home or are they in the same situation as me!! Then when I see couples who aren't holding hands I wonder why not - then those who are holding hands make me feel jealous because Colin and I always held hands. Mccmcc wrote something like this a while back in a post while people watching, I can't quite remember how he put it but this kinda sums it up.
Enough blah blah 
try to enjoy your Saturday night x
