So sorry to read about your wife. It will still feel very raw for you. We are a lovely bunch here, all at various stages of losing our spouses, but we all get it. Feel free to read around of just chat on here whenever you want to.
It is so hard to watch them deteriorate and then leave you. My husband died in October and in the end he was begging to due so i understand that sense of being at peace.
So sorry for your loss and as Malengwa says we are a nice bunch and do `get it` when you feel those around you don't so just come here when you feel you need to. There will always be a post that you can relate to. I have just got past my 3 year anniversary of losing my husband (23rd June 2023).Coming to this forum helps a lot you can rant and rave and vent all you like and no one judges you because we have all been there and some of us are still there. Yes very early days for you and your head will be all over the place and you'll be experiencing all sorts of emotions. Sending you best wishes and Take Care of yourself.
Hello HiFi, I'm sorry that you've joined the club nobody asks to join. And I also understand how you feel about your Margaret being at Peace now . It's exactly what I was thinking when I walked the dogs today. I was thinking about how my dear Hubby suffered at the end ..even more so than he bed been for so many years. How unfair it is that foe some death is prolonged and painful. My Hubby and me often said we wouldn't see an animal suffer . And sometimes I felt I was keeping him here for longer than he really wanted. Though I still don't believe he was ready to die ,despite saying so often that he didn't expect to live a long life. They may now be at Peace , but haven't left us in "Peace" . My mind whirls with images of him day and night. I cry so much and have done every day since he died nearly 14 months ago. I never imagined I would have to watch my Hubby slip away . It was very traumatic and I often dream of his last weeks . Waking up crying another day. It's still very early days for you , At first you will be in shock and when that protection wears of it will hit you more . Take one day at a time. Eat , rest and sleep when you feel the need and also drink plenty of water. You might want to get your name down for counselling as there is always a waiting list . It does help to talk to someone .
