Father's day

nicangel 1 hour ago

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I've really struggled with Father's day. Is this silly? This is the first one since I lost Nick in November. We were unable to have children, we tried everything really. We had at least 2 miscarriages. I always thought of Nick as a dad and I found it hard when he was alive too. To know I couldn't give him that. So today I've spent lots of time thinking wherever he is is he with our little ones?

Now that he's gone there's only me to remember them all.

And Nick's father has not been a nice person since he passed. I don't think he'll even remember his son today. I feel so annoyed at him. Nick was the best of that family.

Sorry I know this is a bit of a tangent or rant.or whatever. I just wish I could untangle it all.

Insanity Kate 45 minutes ago

No, it’s not silly. You and your Nick had your dreams. Yes, he is with your little ones. Why is life so bloody cruel ? His father sounds horrible. Today, has been difficult. My Paul loved Father’s Day, and all the fuss that went with it. A few pints down the pub with our son. Pressie’s and hugs from our daughter. We have all welled up at different times today. It’s nearly two years since he was taken. Earlier, I had to take a nap as I knew I was close to the sobbing stage. I feel better now, as I can have a fortifying glass of wine (or two), and sit on the decking to enjoy the wildlife garden that I am creating. Stag beetles, hedgehogs, bats, butterflies, bees, robins. It is a tropical wildlife, and gives me a lot of peace. Sending hugs to all. Kate.xxx

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