Actuallly, felt very sad today. Today would have been our 2nd wedding anniversary (although we were together for much longer).
Last night I was in the garden, lit a candle and had a cry.
I went to work this morning but my mind was not into to it so left work at lunch time.
The positive side in me decided to have a pamper. So got my hair cut (after 3 months or so!) and had a pedicure. It did lift my mood somewhat and now, I am on my way to a pub to meet a friend who I contacted earlier today to see if she wanted to go for a walk. It will be nice just to talk about him.
You just don't know how you are going to feel on anniversaries etc. There is a massive gaping hole in my life. Going forward, I think I am just going to have a day off. Feel what I need to feel! Plan to do something nice, even if that is just a walk in a nice park etc. or a last minute pamper. I hate to plan, so more like, just plan to take the day off and go with the flow. Dont know why I went i to work this morning?
Tomorrow is a new day! Just felt the need to share.
With lots of love,
Dutsie Xx
