Hello All,
During the past two days I've been tidying up and clearing out many draws that contained stuff I didn't even know we had! My sweetheart - who I now call - ' My little Squirrel Lady.' never seemed to throw anything away. Yet she clearly also forgot what she had! I found three packets of unopened sewing needles, yet so often in the past I struggled to find one needle in the needle holder. Five wrist watches she had once warn throughout the ages. Packets of saved foreign coins from countries we'd visited. There were duplicates of nearly everything. Packets of safety pins, needles, hooks and eyes and batteries of all sorts, Most see led and unopened. And much, much more. I even found a photo of Anne in black and white when I must have first met her. STRANGELY non of this upset me? And memories were flooding back in droves of times gone by. Stuff I had completely forgotten about. YET still no upset? I smiled a lot and kept repeating ' You little squirrel lady what have we got here then ? ' Anne passed about 10 weeks ago and it was only a short while ago I kept breaking down with grief Attacks ! And now I look back I don't know who I should be picturing. Anne when we first met? Anne in middle age? Or Anne when she was 71 and laying in a hospital bed waiting to pass over? I suppose she is all of these pictures. All of these women. To stabilise my self I have a picture of my sweetheart on the mantle piece of Anne when she was about 30yrs. That's the one I've chosen to see her as. And the beautiful lady I will one day meet again when its my turn to pass. NOW- having just typed this - I'm in floods of tears again. Just what is happening to me ?
Love and Light
Geoff
