Well wide awake as usual,and feeling quite weepy,I was fine until I was just saying night night to Alan’s picture as I always do,then I realised it will be a year in 15 days since I lost him,How it can be that long since I heard his voice and held his hand.this is unbearable the loneliness is unbelievable and the house is just so quiet,just don’t know what to do with myself,Don’t even like going out on my own as it seems to be couples everywhere and I feel jealous.Is that normal ?,Sorry for my post being so negative.I just want to scream and say life is not fair,Alan should be here,
Hi Newb
I feel for you.
Doing things is a good idea to get distracted. Just do what you feel you can, i know its very very hard to get motivated. I had a bad night. My stomach is constantly aching. Got an appointment today at 11am in town and i am still in bed at 8.30am.
I hope we get through an other day.
Thinking of you and all here
Andrea
Hi Andre hope your appointment goes ok and the day is not so long I have appointment at 12 to so hope we all have a almost normal bank holiday lots of hugs to you all
Hi Newb,
i hope all is as good as it can be with the oncologist today. Thinking of you.
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