I don't know what I am doing wrong but sometimes I can see all the discussions but like now i cannot see any post from this group.
I feel very down today almost panicking. Even though i am staying at the hotel my husband used to work at. They gave me a room which is very kind of them. Have been talking to a few people during the day but they all have finished their shifts now and i am back in the room on my own and the anxiety is taking me over. I feel I want to scream. The loneliness is horrifying.
Sorry for rambling
Had to get my feelings out as i feel they are suffocating me
Andrea
Hi Likido
You might be right. Going home tomorrow morning.
These people are trying to help me and i thought it will be better for me to be surrounded by people rather then at home alone with the silence. It seems i cannot find my place anywhere.
Andrea
You are very new to this, but I knew from the beginning that I needed to face up to reality and that I couldn’t run away from it.. maybe your friends at the hotel will allow you back when you feel you need to go back, I hope so. You may find some comfort being in your own home. I hope so. There is no easy answer. It is something you have to go though. Take care xx
I had known and loved my husband for 40 years. We only had 25 years married.(a long story). Time is the only thing that eases the pain. It’s been 6 years for me and I stilll miss him and think of him every day. It’s not something that goes away, you will always grieve for them, but you will get better at dealing with it and it will get easier. X
Thank you Andrea. It’s the price we pay for having loved and being loved. Remember that. Xx
Let us know how you are doing when you get home tomorrow. Won’t be easy, but better to face up to it. Always listening. Take care xx
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