37...pip like hard lump upper inner quadrant...breast clinic next week

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Hey ladies 

I am 37 and found what feels like a small pip/grain of rice on my upper inner quadrant of my left breast. At first I thought it was chest wall bone but after a nurse had a feel yesterday she has referred me. I've had fibrodema once in my right  breast and that was more tender and larger al this new lump oh the opposite breast is quite worrying. I have the breast clinic on 13th of August and I have been terrible with anxiety today with diorrhea and I heaved a few times and my heart is racing. I have a little boy who is 6 and I keep thinking what if this is the beginning of the end and he grows up without me. The tears wont stop when I'm in the bathroom alone. 

  • Hello Sorry that you needed to come on here. Your reaction is entirely normal although like you many of us weep in the bathroom.But and it's a big but , the treatments for breast cancer have changed a lot in the last few years alone.I know the 13th August seems too long to wait but the breast clinic will carry out any necessary further tests and then give you a plan. The worst bit is the waiting as I am sure others will confirm. In the meantime take life easy and enjoy your son. Worrying is almost inevitable but will not change the result one iota. You may get the all clear or it may be confirmed that you will need further treatment- either way you will cope- you almost certainly have more inner strength than you think. Sending big but gentle hugs xx

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    FormerMember in reply to Kwissy

    Thank you so much. I know you are right worrying will not change a thing so may as well pretend nothing is wrong until next week because the worrying will not make it vanish. This forum is great I feel much more relieved. [edited by admin]

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    FormerMember in reply to Kwissy

    Thank you I will really try not to worry because as you say it will not make one bit of difference to the outcome

  • HI again

    Easier said than done I know Sending more hugs. I'm sure others will be along to advise and comfort but in the meantime you might like to look at the AWAKE thread it is open 24/7 and for everyone. xx Kwissy

  • I'm sorry you find yourself here..... its the place where none of us want or wanted to come to.  Now you are here, you will find you have come to the right place, so much advise from real people that have walked steps in front of you - no matter what the out come we have all come here when we need help and advice.  This could be something it might be nothing - either way till you have your clinic appointment on the 13th it really is not worth giving any thought to it, your worrying won't help, it will drain you of the here and now.  You will go though so much turmoil during these coming weeks and will realise that even family and friends won't be of any help .... 'you will be fine' will spring up a lot .... followed by the voice in your head 'how do you know, you don't know anything'.  I didn't tell anyone other than my husband, I didn't want people asking - for asking sake and I didn't want it kept been brought up.  If there was a chance I could forget about it for a while - then I'd rather that.... although you will now start to hear every advert on the radio or tv will relate to 'C'.

    Try hard to put it out of your mind till you go to the breast clinic - then you can review the situation then.  If you do find yourself stressing download some 'apps' on "Mindfullness" - Headspace is good and I think you can get a '30 day free trial' (others are available).  Who you start to stress open the app and try some of the calming or breathing exercises.

    Thinking of you .....

    I'm hoping this makes sense - only my mind says one thing and my fingers type whatever they like x
  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to WhatHappened

    Thank you so much I have made myself worse joining a Facebook group as I thought I would find comfort but all I have done is found over 30 women in their 30s  with nasty aggressive breast cancer types