So it's coming upto a year without my Angel Belle and I'm still in limbo. I've started to venture out with my friends and their other halves but feel jealous that they still have theirs and I don't. They all understand but I feel that they don't really. Mine and Belles family are not really there ror me and her daughter so I've got to the point where I don't call them, haven't spoken to my own father for 2 months.
I've basically just kept on for my stepdaughter and she is still on a bad roller coaster, especially after we had to put Brlles and our last cat down last month. She's got a date today with some lad that I know who used to be a bit of a knob but I'm hoping hes changed since he's got older as I don't want her hurt. She worries so much about me as she told a friend of mine last week and this week she told me that her mum wouldn't want me to be alone and that she wants me to find someone too which kind of broke my heart.
Just feeling a bit down and hoping my mood can change today especially as my best friend Sarah and I are taking her boys out for a picnic.
I think that this last week has been hard due to the fact that Kings have accepted my 6 complaints that I've requested especially why I was turnt away just 3 hours before she died and its woken up all my emotions again.
