Hi, everyone,
I did my first gig on my own on Wednesday, a band called Alter Bridge in Newcastle. I cried when I went in remembering other concerts, with Sue.
They did one song, which I looked at a picture of my wife, touched her wedding ring around my neck and a flood of tears. I was not ashamed, it was 13 months on the day. I went back to my lonely hotel room, totally drained. The next morning I went down for breakfast and saw a few couples wearing tour t-shirts and I just looked at the empty chair across from me and felt a wet face.
Ever since then I have been feeling like I have gone backwards. I thought it would do me some good, prove that I can do it. I don't know if it's feeling guilty or just another reminder of the life I had.
Sorry just wanted to talk to people who understand it.
Take care everyone.
