Hi
my husband died in October at the age of 62 of oesophageal cancer. 5 months later I figure that I should be regaining some sort of normality. If anything, however, I seem to be going down hill. I don’t feel depressed, but I simply can’t be bothered to do anything except the absolute essentials. There is so much I should be doing, but I can’t seem to make any decisions, and it all seems a bit pointless, and not worth the effort. Recently my sleep patterns have gone completely haywire. During the day I feel totally drained, but at 3am I’m often walking the dogs. Sometimes I don’t go to bed, I sleep in the recliner. In fact, I almost live in our small conservatory. I feel uncomfortable sitting in the lounge. Cooking for one feels simply not worth it. I hardly watch any tv. I rarely go out. When I do see other people I am quite capable of being my old self, but on my own with the dogs (thank goodness for them) the days seem to fly by and I achieve nothing. I’m not maudlin, I just can’t see any reason to do anything. I know intellectually that this cannot be healthy, but I can’t seem to break the cycle of feeling exhausted and at sea. Should I takes steps to “get a grip”, or is this just a natural part of the grieving process that I just have to get through? I’m getting to the point where I’m starting to worry that there is something wrong. Thanks in advance for any thoughts and suggestions x
