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They say everything comes in threes. First, my bladder cancer, second my partner has two suspicious looking moles on his legs. He is very fair skinned and covered in moles. These two are not like the others though, red, rough and uneven. And they appear to be getting bigger. He's seeing the doctor on Monday. Third, a small lump I've had for years appears to be growing bigger. I'm waiting for the doctor to ring me. Meanwhile, I am praying these things are not malignant. Fingers crossed....
The following Spring i.e. this Spring the lump reappeared around Easter time as it got sunnier.
It started to become red and bleed when I itched it. I told myself, "You've already been told it's benign" so I didn't go to my GP who might think I was being over anxious. It then started to grow a white/ yellow top. This began to stick up through my eyelashes when I closed my eye. It grew noticeably longer. I made an appointment with my optician. I'd ask his opinion. If he was...
A lump looking like a sty developed on my lower eyelid. My very good optician, when I had my eyes retested for my glasses, thought it might be a 'rodent ulcer' and wrote to my GP. Of course I looked up what that was! Oh oh! My GP referred to eye unit as urgent. Phone call within days to book me into a triage clinic but concerns that eyelid surgeon not available and about to leave.
Specialist doctor called triage consultant in. Said very suspicious, very urgent. I've never seen two doctors...
This cancer thing seems so much harder for my partner than for me. He gets really upset although it appears we have caught it in time as it hasn't spread. The thing is it keeps bringing me down. I'm a glass half full person and want to feel positive but he's so worried about what will happen to him and the dog if I die. We are in council housing and I am applying to have my partner's name on the tenancy agreement. It's a bit of a process and we don't know if they'll say yes. We have no savings so...
4th Rchop uneventful - good Ned from consultants that the mass is 'resolving nicely' albeit leaving a squashed bit of small bowel that may need resection - but will leave that decision until end of chemo - 2 to go. Still to decide on radiotherapy as that might hit the bowel too hard
So much to decide still!
Good couple of weeks and got away for a few days in Port Isaac - snookered this week so resting ahead of daughter's wedding this Sunday
Fingers crossed and prayers...
I have my appointments next Tuesday, 22nd August, first one with the surgeon and second one with the radiologist. It looks like they'll be recommending chemotherapy. I'm over my knee-jerk reaction of NOOOOooooo! I'm looking at it this way, I've been a smoker for forty-five years, only recently quit and still having the odd one occasionally. I figure I may have cancer cells elsewhere and the chemotherapy will put a stop to them, so it's probably a good thing. I am terrified my hair will fall out but...
