Well today I do something I haven't done before.......my own blog! Hmmmmm will I have enough to say? Will any of it make sense? Will it help me? Well I suppose it doesn't matter this is just a space for me to talk to myself to share how I really feel without having to worry about upsetting anyone else.
Its been 2 years since my bone mets were found, 2 years! Where the heck did that time go! Well I had half my sternum removed, changed hospitals, started a new treatment, moved back to live with my parents and started a new job! Hmmmmmm put like that I suppose I have been through quite a lot.
I can't help feeling I am in some sort of limbo, I don't have a purpose anymore! Where is my life going now? I go from one scan to the next waiting for those words "all is stable" then my family celebrate the good news, I feel relieved but that's it, no excitement just an odd empty feeling a feeling that nothing has changed my life continues to revolve around work, doctors appointments and trying to find the energy to have some fun!
I dream of getting my old life back, that life where I didn't have a care in the world! That life where I had dreams of becoming a wife and a mother..........but in August 2013 my life changed and sadly it has never been the same since!
I'm on a mission to find my purpose.........I know it's here somewhere! But where that is the question!!
