My sister has secondary breast cancer in her lung and bones, she’s told me she has been given 2 years (since diagnosis in October 2018) on her current drugs and then nothing after that . I offered support and felt I was rebuffed so stepped back now to my more usual relationship with her. She has supportive friends, she is buys as she ever was (despite being very tired from the drugs). I on the other hand struggle with a chronic illness so feel pretty useless to her practically - and she’s doesn’t seem to want my emotional support - and I am ashamed at how devastated, withdrawn from my own life and depressed I have become in the light of how she is coping so well and getting every drop out of life she possibly can - supporting worthy causes, as much as she ever did, being a fantastic friend to her friends etc ... I am at a loss. I feel I have already lost her. And I feel shame for how I am feeling.
