My partners had chemo today,the first time in 3 weeks as had low blood count previously...
We've just had a cuppa on return home and both shed a few tears.... He has discomfort and it sets our minds racing about the future and the inevitable.. As I write he is humming and putting on a brave face once again as he doesn't like to worry me.
In fact it is rare he let's me see him upset. It hits me hard,quietly. I don't want to lose him,I just don't know how and what we have or how long we have. Currently he is mobile, eating etc and living a reasonably normal' life,or to the outside world.
Why why does this happen to such lovely caring thoughtful people.. Why.
I'm so so sad today. Tomorrow has to be better, though scan day tomorrow, and results on 17th,that will be awful,the anticipation of what news we will be dealt..
