hi susan and amanda, been having problems posting on the other post so thought i would carry on here and see if it works!! how has your weekend been? susan do things feel a little easier for you this year or not really? i feel so sorry for you having all those people around you last year when i bet all you wanted to do was run didnt you? its awful with christmas coming isnt it i even go shopping online as to not have to go shopping with all the xmas things about. i feel so selfish and bitter at the moment and dont want to, i can hear my mum saying come on karen dont be like that but its hard isnt it. i feel so lonely tonight i just want to talk and have a cuddle and a kiss with my mum, sometimes it really hits even harder doesnt it? speak to you both soon, and hope you are bearing up. we all need each other dont we? my love and thoughts are with you love karen xxxxx
Jayne-good for you. It’s such a pity about the pay; you sounded as if you would have been really keen on that job. I think you mentioned the other one you’ve applied for before. No word on that one yet I take it? Karen-good luck with your one too. Any word on how hubby's interview went yesterday?
You’re right about having to accept the “Mum” conversations but it makes you feel quite isolated sometimes, doesn’t it? If they even had been talking about times gone by then I could have joined in. My mum was so to good these friends over the years and they never ever mention her or my dad any more.
I’m just away to wash my hair. It drives me insane too but I won’t start on that! It’s a gorgeous day again today and they say it will be 18 degrees here today-ha ha ha I think that’s a tall story! Then I’m off to try and get hold of my brother again. He didn’t phone last night and didn’t reply to any of my messages which is very unlike him. I often think about how lucky I am to have him still looking out for me (even at my age!!) It’s such a shame about you and your brother, Marie-maybe one day-eh??
Jayne did you manage to get an online sponsor page sorted yet? Did you phone that number? Remember and let me know if you do.
I’m feeling a bit panicky about this counselling again and don’t know what’s going to happen today. I feel I haven’t benefited that much from it and as I've said before, she's a lovely, warm hearted person but I've never really built up a relationship with her. However, it was comforting to know that she was there for me. Mind you, I’ve got you lot now so who needs CRUSE????
Must dash. Have a good day everyone.
Louise
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hi girls
hope your all ok.
louise glad you had a good day out, the pics on your site are great.
marie still havent started packing yet have you?
jayne good for you telling them about the money.
sharon hope you are ok.
jodie how are you? hope not too bad.
liz are you working hard? hope your ok.
nicky how are you now? hope your feeling a bit brighter.
some good news for once hubby got his job, as a porter in a posh hotel, so fin gers crossed it all goes well.
some more illnesses though, my sisters friends mum is 58 she has an anuerysm (spelling?) which is inoperable, but last week it had got bigger, so they had to do an operation, the family was told how serious this is, anyway shes had it done, and in intensive care she had a stroke and cant feel anything down one side, so hope she will be ok.
also a friend of the familys son in law who is 52 has just been diagnosed with cml and has only been given aprox 1 year to live, and then i saw my friends mum and her husband has just had a heart attack and his kidneys have given up so is on dialysis, my god what is going on? theres bad things happening everywhere you look isnt there? sorry for the morbid stories but its awful isnt it?
have just been up to the cemetery and we had a bench made with a beautiful plaque for mum and dad, and it is there today, its so lovely and we have somewhere to sit and talk to them now, bless them!!!!!!!!!!
hope you all have a good day, lots of love karen xxx
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Hi Karen
How are you?That’s great news about your husbands job, I hope he gets on really well and likes it.
But what a lot of bad news !!!my Dad had an aortic aneurysm and was rushed to intensive care because it had started leaking.We were told he wouldn’t live the night, but he pulled through due to his strong will and also a wonderful surgeon.I hope everything goes ok for her.they're not so common in women, its usually men that get them apparently. Sorry about all the other awful things going on as well, I don’t know what to think sometimes, everywhere you look it seems someone has something happening.
That’s lovely about the bench, I'm so pleased you have it sorted out now.You will be able to sit in perfect peace and just reflect on happy times.
I hope you’ve started packing and stuff, not long now to go.Its going to get warmer in the next few days so I hope it stays like it for all of you that are going away next week.Speak soon Karen, take care, love jayne xxx
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Hi Louise
Hope you got on ok at cruse and you managed to get in touch with your brother.Did you go looking round the shops today?No I haven’t heard anything from the job I went for last Monday, but I didn’t like it there so I'm not fussed.Yes the medical centre would have been nice, but I'm not working for peanuts, they should advertise for monkeys if that’s what they're paying!!I've sat and completed another job application this morning, so hopefully will hear from them.It’s a bit of an unusual job but I quite fancy it (strange person that I am).
I hope you're getting the 18 degrees they promised, it was supposed to be nice here but its blummin cold again.Still, will be better in the next few days.(I'm starting to feel like a weather forecaster).Maybe apply for a job with Michael Fish ??
I didn’t do the online sponsor form yet, I'm still thinking about it.I will see how many I get on the one that was posted to me.Its been quiet on here today, I guess everyones busy getting ready for their hols.I wonder how Susan is, I bet she's having a good time, but will be glad to get back and see Jonathan.See you later, love jayne xxx
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Hi Marie and Amanda, I hope you're ok. No one seems to want to come out to play today, it's really quiet. Maybe see you later. love jayne xxx
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Liz, how is your dad? I hope everything is ok, thinking of you.
Sharon, I hope you and your mum are ok. Please let us know how things are.
Jodi, you havent been here for a while, i hope things are improving for you.
Nicky, how are you feeling now? I know Friday is going to be hard for you and I hope you get through it ok. Just remember all the good times you had with your mum. That's all we can do now.
take care all, love jayne xxx
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HI Jayne
How are you doing today, I hope you are having a good day. The weather here is really nice and sunny I've come out to catch up with you all before i go to mums. I'm feeling the same at the moment I just feel like giving up with everything. I think as each day passes I lose the will to live even more. Its really hard to keep it together for mum when i feel so bad. When I saw her last weds I hardly spoke to her I just didn't feel like it the last thing i want is for her to start worrying about me but at the moment I just don't know which way to turn. i sometimes think I should just give up completely and leave this crap world. I'm sorry to sound so depressing but thats just how I feel at the moment. Are you doing anything easter weekend. I hope you soon find the job your looking for. I don't blame you for not taking the job at the doctors. You take care and have a good easter love Sharon xxx
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hi jayne
good to hear from you, hope your ok and your back and knee are better.
have you anything planned tonight or the weekend, or are you just chilling?
speak soon, lots of love karen xxx
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hi sharon
sorry your feeling so down but its only to be expected, as i remember when my mum and dad were so poorly i felt like it the whole time and mum especially used to pick up on it and how we felt, but it is hard to remain positive and keep a smile on your face isnt it?
sharon a lot in this world is crap i know mate but you do have to try and stay strong to get your mum through this chemo and everything i know its so hard but you will get through it, we are all proof of that here and we are all here for you i know it doesnt change anything but at least you have us to come and share your feelings etc., i dont suppose ive helped you in any way but i just want to let you know we all know what your going through and will be here for you anytime.
take care, speak soon, lots of love and a big hug karen xxx
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Hi Karen,
Thanks for your post. Hope you're ok. I'm not too bad thanks. I've felt a bit lonely today, although I dont know why because I've actually spoken on the phone to someone and been next door to the neighbours, so spoken to more people than i usually do all week (as my husband pointed out !).
Tonight we're sorting out stuff of mums for the charity bag thats being collected tomorrow morning (mostly books and nik naks). We dont have any plans for easter weekend, just looking forward to hubby being here and dossing. It will make a change to have him come shopping with me, hes really good at it, gets all the bargains, i just push the trolley while he does the rest. Are you ready for the hols? I've eaten my one and only easter egg already. My niece bought us one each and i ate mine last night. That was good news about your hubbys job wasnt it? Things are looking up. Hope to get back later. see you soon Karen, love jayne xxx
