hi susan and amanda, been having problems posting on the other post so thought i would carry on here and see if it works!! how has your weekend been? susan do things feel a little easier for you this year or not really? i feel so sorry for you having all those people around you last year when i bet all you wanted to do was run didnt you? its awful with christmas coming isnt it i even go shopping online as to not have to go shopping with all the xmas things about. i feel so selfish and bitter at the moment and dont want to, i can hear my mum saying come on karen dont be like that but its hard isnt it. i feel so lonely tonight i just want to talk and have a cuddle and a kiss with my mum, sometimes it really hits even harder doesnt it? speak to you both soon, and hope you are bearing up. we all need each other dont we? my love and thoughts are with you love karen xxxxx
Louise-hows your day been?? did you buy anything nice at the craft fair??
Any joy with the hunt for kitchen furniture?? its fun looking round those types of shops.I shouldn't be telling you this,but years ago Mum Dad and i had loads of fun in Homebase- rearranging the additional items that they had in their kitchen displays!! Ie- plastic fruit and loaves of bread that were on display in kitchens,we moved to bedroom displays.!! Toilet rolls that were placed in bathroom displays found themselves in the ovens in kitchen displays!! we were in hysterics,like three naughty schoolchildren! Mum was the one who started it off, she had a very peculiar sense of humour!
Also,we once went to a big local warehouse that was newly opened, and as we left Mum said rather loudly,"isn't it a pity that it's closing time? i could have looked round there for ages yet!" and people who were heading into the store turned to each other saying "no point going in there,they're just closing!" and they turned round and went back to their car!!
Memories!!! luckily,i have lots of good ones to look back on.I shall have to try to keep them in mind,because our holiday without mum is going to be very hard.We are going somewhere where we all went as a family around 7 years ago,and i know i'm going to find it painfull-being there without my mum.
Marie, you've got me at it again, haaa haaa. Thats so funny. I can remember when PC World opened locally and I used to take mum down on Saturday mornings just to walk round and play on the computers. It was when computer places used to let you actually use them (nowadays you cant get into them can you). But anyway, one day we were in there and playing card games and things, and then mum found one that had a thing on it called 'Grandmas House', and everytime you clicked on a window or a door someone came out and said something funny. My mum was in abosolute fits of laughter. And then the manager came over and asked if he could help us, but I couldnt talk for laughing. We went back the following Saturday and did it again but didnt get sussed that time. The next week they had changed all the computers so you couldnt get on them!!! Spoil sports, haaa haaa. Happy Days.
Like I keep saying, no one can take our memories away, I know its sad to look back on some things, but the happy times far outweigh everything dont they??
Jayne- The police came round for you, did they???? Well what did you decide to do about the job? Are you going to go for the second interview just to see? (sorry I see this is just a list of questions)
My day was fine-no kitchen or bathroom though. I haven’t a clue what I’m looking for-just something plain and simple. I think I might phone and get someone to come to the house. I’m just a bit confused as there were so many displays. Mum and Dad got a new bathroom from them just a couple of months before Dad died and it was lovely but it cost a huge amount as they did everything. I think I would get them to do that too as I don’t know any tradesmen.
The craft shops were lovely and so was lunch. I only had soup and a sandwich but it was yummy. "MUMS" and what they were up to came up in conversation as usual so I just tended to sit quietly. I know nothing’s meant but it’s hard when they all still have both their parents. It’s as if mine never existed sometimes.
You can now see Cuddles and Joe’s trip on the web site-woopey!!! (The Adventures of Cuddles and Joe) I hope the children aren’t traumatised when they see them hanging on the washing line!! No-one would come into the photos with me-cowards!! Oh what fun-I'm like a two year old sometimes!!!
I loved reading about your memories just now. I still find it hard to visualise happy times although I do talk about things occasionally now.
It’s my brother’s birthday tomorrow so I expect I’ll see him sometime but I’m not sure what shift he’s working. I’ve also got my review with CRUSE. It’s in town so I might just have a look round the shops beforehand. I’m just not sure where I’m going with the counselling now. I had made my mind up I wasn’t going back and even made a big donation last time. I’ll see what she says-CONFUSED CONFUSED CONFUSED!!!
Off to trail Benji out for a bit again to see if that helps me sleep. I don’t usually go out walking later but I don’t go far and stick to the main roads.
Catch up soon.
Lots of love
Louise
xxx
Amanda-went with a friend to have a look round the gym which is about 5 minutes walk away from me. It’s Bannatyne’s-looks lovely but I think it’s quite expensive. They’re going to send me a price list.
Hi Louise-- the pic of Joe skateboarding is brilliant!!!! It looks like you had a good day which is lovely. unfortunately,we can't avoid people talking about their mums.Sometimes it does bring a tear to your eye,but we have to accept it i guess.
Don't feel under pressure to stop the councelling.It's personal to you,and you are the only one who will know when it is time to stop.I would guess that,because you are undecided,it's probably not quite the time just yet.You won't be going for ever,but even if you are going for say,another year,so what? Please try to shake off what your friend said to you the other day.I'm sure that she wasn't being malicious,she just clearly has no idea-and lets hope that its a very long while before she does,for her sake.
It will be nice to spend some time with your brother tomorrow.I shant be having to bother with my brothers birthday this year shall i. It does make me sad,but i'm a stubborn cow,and am still pretty mad about it all!!!!
How are you today?I'm glad you had a good day yesterday, I think its good to keep looking around for the kitchen and bathroom, you have to be sure don’t you because it’s a lot of money to spend on something if later you wished you’d got a different type.Like Marie said, its inevitable really that our friends will talk about their mums, we can't help it I'm afraid.My friend was telling me about her Mum the other day, she's had a new knee and doesn’t even try to exercise it or get out.I had to tell her that it makes me mad because my Mum never got the chance and would have been up and about in no time, when her Mum just does nothing.Its not fair, but that’s life I suppose, we just have to accept it.
I haven’t looked at the website yet, will do that in a mo.I hope you get on ok at cruse, great idea to look round the shops first, a bit of retail therapy does you good, even if you don’t buy anything its just nice to bimble about.
The phone just rang again, looks like it was the medical centre again.I WILL answer it next time.I'm going to tell them the truth and say sorry but its not enough money, I can't keep putting them off can I?
I hope you got a better nights sleep, I feel drained today, kept tossing and turning, not a good night.See you later Louise. love jayne xxx
Hope you're all ok.I have to get my act together today and get an application form filled in before I start anything else.Then I need to go begging round the neighbours for their ‘Heart Foundation’ donation bags because we have lots of books and things but need extra bags, so while I'm there I might REALLY make a nuisance of myself and take my sponsor form as well.(how to fall out with your neighbours !!)
I'm off to have a look at my mates Joe and Cuddles now, they get out more than I do !See you later, jayne xxx
Louise, Ive just been onto your website and the photos are really good, they looked like they had a good day too. Although I must say that Joe looks like he could be a bit of a handful to me ! He looks like a bear who likes to get his own way. Where do they shop for their clothes, I like Joes T shirt and wouldnt mind getting one like it. (I'm going to play with the fairies now, so will see you later). Love jayne xxx
I'm back (aint i a nuisance). The medical centre just phoned again and asked me back for 2nd interview, but i told them sorry its not enough money, thanked them for seeing me, and good bye. That's that sorted.
