Mum going into care, feeling guilty

Hi , I know the anguish of watching your mum 'reduced to skin and bone'. It's horrible. As you say, you're on your own and you just couldn't give her the care she needs. You've done more than your duty by her, you've given everything you could and no one could ask more. You are not betraying her, quite the opposite given that she'll get care 24 hours a day and with staff working shifts but I understand your feelings. The fact that you've 'been 100%' on your own might be an indicator to the emotions you are experiencing. It's an awful lot for one person to shoulder. Might I suggest you contact someone for help for yourself? Your GP can refer you for counselling, or try a local group, there are Maggie's Centres where they run wonderful therapy courses for those who care for loved ones with cancer and you could phone the helpline on 0808 808 0000. However strong you are, you need some support through this. You've been wonderful for your mum, now it's time to think of you.

Love and hugs,

Thank you so much for your reply. I was home alone last night and feeling very despondent at the situation. We've also lost both our dogs in the past year to cancer, I honestly thought the world had gone mad at one point. 

I think I'll definitely take your suggestion to contact Maggie's, I could really do with someone to talk to. Thanks again. 

Hugs x