On Tuesday we found out that my mum has bowel cancer. She has been losing weight for a few months and after a colonoscopy they found a tumour. She had a CT scan 2 days later and we are now in the awful waiting stage. I’m 47 years old (my mum is 75) and everyone in my family is pragmatic, practical and very much “let’s get on with things” and I’m the only one who is an emotional mess. I can’t stop crying, and I feel angry that I wasn’t more concerned with her symptoms. I know it’s easy with hindsight. I feel so alone and I feel like I’m letting my mum down by not being brave and crying all the time.
