I don’t know how to cope

Hi chicgourmet

The waiting is so hard, because you dont know what you are dealing with. Then maybe a bombshell hits, as it did with my husband and you are in turmoil. I hope your wait is not too long.

Youre not letting your mum down, you are naturally worried for her, and all sorts of things will be going through your mind, like has it spread, is it treatable, how will she cope with chemo or radiotherapy, will I be strong enough, is she going to die from this? I found I cried out of earshot of my husband, who died of a rare sarcoma in October and I had all those worries whilst waiting. Sadly for him, every single scan was always bad news, but for many its not.

There are lots of people here to chat so do just say it, it can really help whilst you wait, I wish I had found this place sooner.

Hugs to you. X

Thank you for your support and I’m so sorry for your loss x

If it’s anything like me, I’m being pragmatic on the outside but hiding my sadness & upset until I’m on my own, they may be doing the same. 

The one thing I read that helped me a little bit ‘was don’t eat the frog twice’. I’m trying not to live in the future & all the things that could be as from my experience to date, it doesn’t go the way you think it will and the mind plays tricks, always thinking the absolute worst. I just keep trying to retrain my thoughts. I also write stuff down, I find that helps.

I’m here if you ever want to chat.