Hi
I am full time carer for hubby due to multiple health conditions.
He has recently been diagnosed with malignant melanoma (on top of everything else) .
I am a trained nurse so the caring bit comes naturally but my emotions are a bit “all over the place”
We are currently waiting on results of slnb, WLE (4 weeks ago) and ct scan (6 weeks ago) spoke to specialist nurse team today and his case will be discussed at the MDT on Thursday and we have an appointment with the specialist nurse Friday.
Hubby is of the opinion that no news is good news and if there had been anything major it would have flagged up by now, I have the niggly doubt monster whispering in my ear and saying don’t count your chickens it’s not always the case that no news is good news so I’m alternating between the positive and the less than positive.
I’m also feeling guilt and doubt (maybe I missed the odd looking mole and it had been there longer than I think) and a bit of anger I guess..(that he already has so many issues and life is so unfair at times).
We have discussed our feelings and also our plans for the future (esp if the outcome isn’t great) but just got everything crossed for a positive appointment next week.
Sorry to waffle on , just needed to put my thoughts into words 
Hi and welcome to the community though sorry to hear about your hubby.
You are so right life is unfair but trying to outguess the future does not really help much; the what if's are another good way to increase our stress.
Often see nurses on here who are great at caring for others but it can be rather more difficult when things come knocking in your family.
Fingers crossed for good news but whatever come back and we can help support you both.
<<hugs>>
Steve
