My husband - Chris - died on the 2nd May 2009 because he had anal cancer. He knew he was going and we spoke about lots and lots of things before he died. That is why I am just not prepared for the huge amount of guilt I feel now. I feel guilty that the world hasn't stopped turning round even though he has died. I feel like everything should stop as a mark of respect. I also feel very guilty that he had to be so ill he had to die. What a cruel cruel thing it is to make someone so ill their body just stops working. I wasn't ready for him to go. I really really hope these are normal feelings because I must hang on to my sanity for the sake of my 3 children. I have never known sadness like I feel right now. I can't believe that I will not hear his voice or feel his touch again. We were married for almost 32 years and I have known Chris for 34 years - since I was 16. What happens now? Ailsa
Yeah its defintely helping me xxx Well done Lynne xxx
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Thanks for invite Lynne, am hoping to come too. It would me good for me to be busy that weekend as the 4th would have been Colin's birthday. Let me know where you are staying, Ailsa, Gayle & Helen, I will try to book in too. I can get a train direct from Manchester, is it far from the train station to where your 'do' is?
Hair cut pics will be coming, you lot can nag for England, lol. Just have not had camera with me when I have been with someone to take pics! Maybe this weekend while I'm at the caravan.
Busy day planned tomorrow, gym, baby club and then out with friends for dinner and packing.
Welcome back Manda, you will be brown as a berry, all these hols!
Hi to Dave, glad you are doing OK now. At least the boys have got C. pox out of the way.
Has anybody heard from Teri, she has been quiet. Hope things have settled down with Murry's mum and you are seeing him again. xx
Love to all Lesley xx
Thats good that you can come too Lesley. I could maybe get train with you if I got to Manchester. Depends on how long train is from you. Might think about it instead of driving, Manchester is only 45 mins from here xx
Helen xxx
I can get to Piccadilly at any time really, as I will probably get SIL to take me there. I think the train to Lynne's is just over and hour from Manchester.
Lynne, is the day on Sat' or Sun'?
Waving, waving! This will be a short post as my desk has had to be moved cos George (the Painter) has decided that my banisters need painting!!! I have an awful lot of them - no not that grand a staircase but an odd sort of landing that has them all the way round. This means that my computer is on one side of the landing, the keyboard on teh floor and the monitor on a shelf up above and not in sight while I am typing!!!!!
So I will just say Hi Manda and welcome home, Hi Lesley - GET A PHOTO - nag, nag, nag! Helen - I will write you a note to get a day off next week seeing as you aohve already worked so hard for two days! lol. Lynne - I don't think I will be able to come that weekend, but I woudl be delighted if you could just imagine that I am there being cheeky!!!
Love to everyone - and as soon as I get this ridiculous set up sorted I will be back!! Jdui xx
Ha, ha Judi, can imagine you typing, a bit like that game, what is it called??? You know the one with a mat with coloured spots on and you all end up in a tangle on the floor. Grrr, can't think of it's name but you have to put hands and feet on certain colours. That is how I imagine you typing but alos trying to juggle wine, lol! x
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