My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Ha ha me too Lesley!! Got an image of Judi kneeling on the landing lol!!

Thanks Judi, a day off next week would be great!! Although beginning of May it is bank holiday Monday then get the day of Paul`s fundraising off too so short week then lol xxx

Why is Judi playing twister on the stairs!!?

Lynne - and anyone else heading for Lynne's on the train on the 3rd July - I will be driving that day so if anyone needs collecting from stations etc I can do it and let Lynne concentrate on her public!  Ailsa xx

Thanks Ailsa , you are a STAR XX Fiona has just text and said she would like to come too but she cant reply on this thread from her i pod , not sure if she meant i phone , any way she's waiting to see what Gayle is doing and hopefully thay can travel together , wow i love it when a plan comes together  xxxxxx

Thats great Lynne. Can t wait to see you all again xxx

I am sooooo....... confused!!!!*  WHO is meeting who?? where? and when? my poor old brain is findinbg it hard to keep up. I think it is still in Japan and trying hard to find it's way back to me.

I am still looking forward to a trip to 'Meadow Hell' Ailsa and Lynne. Let me know when you can make it and I will tell you if I am free from the contraintrs of 'work' lol.

I told my son last night that I would have dinner ready for 7pm. Next thing I know he is stood at the side of me saying 'it's 8.30'. My addled brain was soo confused and I thought 'Oh no, he slept in for work' what i didn't realise was that it was 8.30 in the evening and we had had no dinner because I had fallen asleep. Sooo.... we eventually managed to eat at 9pm (just managed to save the casserole). We had beef casserole and dumplings mmmm..... lovely.

Well I guess I better get some housework done. Have lots to catch up on and no insentive to do it. Oh well.

Take care all. Have the best day you can.

Love and angel hugs. x x x Patricia x x x

Hi Patricia, you are not alone, I get confused when they all get going on here.  Hope you are getting some rest and back to normal whatever that is after your wonderful trip. 
I am slipping under the waves this week, not sure why, possibly the anniversary of when I lost my mom was last weekend, the actual day passed and I didn't remember but I remembered yesterday was the date of the funeral for her 4 years ago.  Hard to see spring and feel hopeful when I don't see a future for me yet but I will climb back up again I am sure.

Manda welcome back, glad you had a great time away. 

It is beautiful weather here and hopefully the sunshine will penetrate my little brain cells a bit.  Still so hard to focus but I was audited at work yesterday, this happens every year or so but this year we were a little concerned as so many people had their hands in my bank account while I was away.  I did go back and straighten it out with the one remaining brain cell I have.  It was great, we were the first school he had nothing to say to, we are doing it right.  Some positive, I guess I am working on autopilot or something like that.  My Principal and Vic-principal brought me flowers this morning which is a nice way to start my day. 

I have been slowly, very slowly working on my clutter but must pick up the speed as my BIL will be coming to pick up Dan's car sometime in May and I don't want him to see the house looking like a tornado went through.  Found Dan's grade 1 report card form 1960's last night, I didn't know we had them, it was neat to look at and I am gathering things to put in a memory box, just not sure what kind of box I will want.  I think when I see it, I will know.  Otherwise just getting through each day as it comes.  I found a cut penguin bookmark and wish I could send you all one. 

lots of hugs to all who need them

Bren

Dearest Bren, I feel for you. I am so sorry you are having such a difficult time. I hope you are not beating yourself up for not 'remembering' your mother's anniversary until a day or two later. You have had such a lot to think about lately that I feel sure you would be forgiven. Here is a brightly coloured lifejacket for you to cling to and it is given with love and angel hugs to help to keep you afloat. The 'penguins will swim alongside you to keep you company. How lovely that your colleagues brought you flowers. Such a lovely gesture. It is good to hear that you are trying to sort out your house. I am still struggling to do that. I don't have any incentive to do it any more so have no interest. I know that sounds bad but there you have it. 

Take care dear Bren and know that we are here to help you through these dark and miserable days.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Morning all , just a very quick one to send some hugs to Bren , i really wish you we're closer and could get involved with some meets , it really is a boost , i still think we should come to you so keep watching that door step for penguins xxxx Patricia , thank you for the text yesterday morning i was ok at the time but the day went steadily down hill from there due to havint o work with a complete jurvenile this week , he is only 22 and he acts like 12 , My boss thought i would have a calming influence on him this week as she had had a few complaints about him , but evcen i am struggling with him . Oh well only 2 more days .

 I've got the valuer coming tonight and then i'm going to church , yes you heard right !!! Its a spiritulist church and i bought a tocket a few weeks ago , its 2 brothers and one does the reading and the othere draws a pic and usually the picture is of someones loved one . There supposed to be very good , and even if i dont get a reading i'm sure it will be entertaining .

.I heard from Gayle last night , she cant get on mac site from her phone either , she's definatly coming to the charity day and she will pick Fiona up so as soon as she is back from sunning her self we can probably sort it out .. And thanks Sue for saying you might get up for the day , i know its a long way for you and its Alans birthday on the sunday so what ever you decide hun i will be happy with .. It seems there is quite a lot of  anniversaries /birhtdays that weekend , lots of drinking to loves ones then !!

Any way my quick post is turning into a novel . Sending love to you all ..

Take care .. Lynne xxxx 

I've PM'd you Dottee ,thank  you for yours , it would be lovely if you could come too xxxx

Morning girls

Thought I'd drop by and leave you all some of my special ((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))) to comfort you............Bren hope you soon find a way up from the depths.......I know that keeping busy helps - but then when you stop it feels even worse than before xxxxxxxx

Lynne have sent you a p/m - will try very hard to be there!!!!!  Good luck with the valuer and at your spiritualist session tonight - I hope you hear good news from both...............

Sue, Ailsa, Judi, Rosemary, Gayle, Lesley, Dave and............ oops sorry if I've missed anyone out...............I hope you all have a good day............

Sending lots of love and many more comforting (((((((hugs))))))) for you all................Dot xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx