I lost my Wife after 11 years in remission only for a misdiagnosis clearing her proved to be a false positive as her Cancer metastasised (spread) to virtually every organ of her body..
She fought like a Trojan undergoing so much treatment and operations that I was amazed how she could continue with such strength, courage and dignity.
When Hospice care was mentioned I knew this was likely to be the final chapter which it was.
She wanted to pass away at home which my Son and I fully supported but the last two weeks were incredibly challenging beyond anything I was prepared for..
Having created a great celebration of her Life at her Funeral you’re then left with a huge void with Probate then occupying your life which is quite cruel.
I'm now in the horns of a dilemma about what to do with my Life.
I’m getting on but want companionship but it’s hard to find as you get older.
I realise that I need to try and be as positive as I can but there are times this seems very difficult.
I’m not clinically depressed but am looking at ways forward in my life which make me happy again which my Wife wanted me to do.
But there is an element of Survivors guilt in me.
