Hi everyone,
I haven't posted here for a while and have only replied to posts which is partly due to the fact that this side has become a lot less accessible from a screen reader point of view but also due to the fact that I am currently translating my book from English into German which is taking a lot of time. And, until last night, there wasn't much to say. I haven't managed to go back to Ireland because of rising Covid 19 cases there and here in Germany. I suppose in one sense it is good to be still here as I am not isolated and alone which is something I really cannot imagine and I so much feel for all of you who are going through this right now. But even though I am with my family and it is good not to be alone, I have course miss my home and friends.
as for my grief, there was not much to say until last night. Last night, however, I read through the notes of our last night in hospital for my book translation. I think I have never drunk a bottle of wine so quickly before. I just felt overwhelmed with the sense of loss and, as a result, being lost in the world. What followed was a sleepless night with a very dark thoughts. Well, I had also forgotten to take my sleeping tablet which is never a good thing because you can feel the with drawl straight away and it gives you a headache and bad dreams.
I guess I was surprised at the sudden grieve as well as the fact that the only way I knew how to cope was to get drunk.
Love to all of you, Mel.
