I’m posting this as I seem to have found myself in a really unhappy place over the last 2 months in particular - and don’t feel I can talk to my daughters (24 & 26) nor my mother in law - nor can I talk to the lady I’ve been seeing for the last 3 months - I’ve been living in a real no mans land in-between them all. I feel so confused, conflicted and lost - 20 months in now. I don’t seem able to have certainty in anything at the moment , all my emotions seem overwhelmed by panic and sadness - I’m so scared of making wrong decisions.
Im going to try for more counselling - although not sure my last counselling helped that much
I’m considering putting this new relationship on hold for a while until I know my own mind a bit more - but I don’t want to hurt the person and I do care deeply for her and enjoy her company - I’m finding it impossible to call it love though and that really bothers me
It frightens me that I feel so out touch and indecisive with my emotions
Steve
