A really bad day

Hi Val

Sending you a big hug.

It still feels like one step forward and 2 back for me regarding my feelings too. I read somewhere that "where there is deep grief there was deep love" and I definitely think that's the case. How can you not feel so alone after 52 years with the man you love.

There will be better days and then there will be sadder days I think we just have to go with it.

I hope today you find something to smile about.

I'm looking forward to watching Scotland play rugby later, not possibly the final score but it's something my Rob and I would have watched together and I hope somehow he's watching too.

Best wishes

Hi all had a good weekend not to many melt downs got back to work watched a video of the dogs I sent to her in hospital now I'm in meltdown

Hi Val. You are not alone in this feeling. One of the last things my wife said to me was please be happy, but that’s impossible without my darling wife with me. We were married for 43 years, and to try and live on your own is so heartbreaking 

yes the quiet and loneliness is one of the worst feelings I have ever had . I am 65 and if I manage to live another 10 years  or whatever ithe future holds nothing at all , except the loneliness . I know we all have to put up with it but it just seems so hard. 

Please val don’t ever be sorry for sounding negative. That’s why we are on here to support each other when we are feeling down. 

Hope you feel better today. 

Sending you a hug. 

Mike 

Hi Ruby thank you for your kind words.Today has been very quiet I just potted about the house,post came and my granddaughter had sent a new picture of our great granddaughter which is lovely so I have put it next to one of Alan’s.he adored her.so that was a positive today,but still feeling low.Hope you enjoyed watching the rugby,Did Scotland win?..Best wishes...

Val...

Hi Mike,I’m trying really hard to be positive about things,but it’s so hard,and the word happy just means nothing,It’s impossible when the person you have spent most of your life with is no longer here,Hope your day has been ok and not to hard.thank you for the hug,.

Val.