<Moving Forward But Not Liking It

Hi

Nice to see that you are pulling the strands of your life together, the thing with 'moving on' or 'moving forward' is that for some of us circumstance makes that more difficult. I ran an IT business with my husband now I am considered too old for IT and I have no other useful skills so I may have moved part of my life but the largest part work is now a closed book that society will not let me reopen. I could get a job at Sainsburys or in a care home but the reason I went into IT is because I don't like people so my new reality is isolation.

D

Hi Mel. Hope you enjoyed the G and T. I am pleased to see you are moving forward with your life. But I am still in a dark place and still the future looks very bleak. I can’t imagine life without Winnie. I hope in time I can get where you are. And maybe enjoy life again. 

Are you still on antidepressants or are you off them now. I have been on them for about a month. 

Hope you keep enjoying life. 

Mike 

Hi Mike and all,

I wouldn't go so far as to say that I am enjoying life, but I think I have found a way to live my life that feels okay to me - certainly not what I wanted but at the same time knowing that it is all I am going to get.

Yes, I am still on anti-depressants and on sleeping tablets and I wouldn't want to come off either of them. I don't want to have to go through any changes related to medication or diet or other things too much because I fear it might change the place where I am right now which is kind of okay.

Love, Mel.

Hi Dee and all,

I am sorry that this is the reality you are finding yourself in.

Of course I know that our circumstances are all different and we struggle in slightly different ways depending on our circumstances. And I am not at all saying that this is easy for anyone, myself included. However, I do feel that, over time, I get used to the new life I have, a life I don't want but a life I have to accept; and something in me tells me that, unless I try to make the most of it, I won't enjoy life ever again and that is a terrible thought. There must be some reason to go on, something to get up for in the morning. I always say: I will never ever fall in love or be in love with anyone like I did with Paul, Paul was and still is my soulmate, my husband, my best friend, my companion in life, the person I feel closest to and safest with; nobody could ever take his place in my heart; but it still remains a fact that he is no longer here with me and that my life is only worth living when I do my best to live it well. For me this means doing my work and actually going on courses and workshops to train even better in helping people get well and heal and maintain their good health, it means finding friends and keeping up friendships, even though sometimes I don't feel the strength for that, it means going to work every day no matter how I may feel inside, it means looking after my house with the same love that Paul and I together used to have for it, it means occasionally traveling somewhere or making new experiences... All those things belong to a fulfilled life. And I think Paul would love to see me doing my best. 

Love, Mel.

I actually don't know how to change the subject line of a post. Its subject line should have been "Moving Forward And Not Liking It" and not "Moving On And Not Liking It". I actually hate the term "moving on" and so much prefer the term "moving forward", God knows why I wrote the term "moving on" last night, it must have been the gin.

Mel.

MelanieL

Hi Mel

Maybe I can help you.

Go back to your original post and you should see at the bottom left (Image 1)

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Click on More

a drop down box should appear (Image 2)

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Edit

Click on Edit

This will take you back to the post as if you hadn't sent it, you can then amend the title line or any other content you want to

When finished press Post/Send/Reply

and your new title line will be shown in the thread anyproblens come back to me 

Ian

Image 1

Image 2

Thank you, Ian, but unfortunately, like it is often the case, I can't click on "more", something which has to do with the screenreader settings. It sometimes happens, and I am not sure why, that screenreader users cannot click on links because the cursor is not really on the link but tells us that it is.

MelanieL

Hi Mel

Plan B

Email community@macmillan.org.uk

And ask Jimmy to  change the header, he should be able to change it to the wording you prefer.

Ian

MelanieL

Hi Mel

Plan B

Email community@macmillan.org.uk

And ask Jimmy to  change the header, he should be able to change it to the wording you prefer.

Ian

Hi Mel I have come off my medication but going back on it again as it did help a little especially sleep when off only got 4hours on it at least 6 hours so stay on it  all the best