Back in the waiting zone.

Hi Abs,

I think you've every right to be Little Miss Gloomy. What with waiting for an operation and Covid!! I feel gloomy just with the Covid threat.

I'm not sure you would be in hospital at Christmas. They tend to clear the wards before weekends, never mind Christmas. I'd have your bag packed in case you suddenly get called in. My friend had an operation recently and only had to isolate over the weekend. She had a Covid test beforehand, too.   xxxxxxx

I agree with NannyAnny.  i am sorry to hear about this, it’s understandable to feel gloomy and wanting to rip your hair out for sure. However on a positive note your consultant seems to be on the hunt to get you in as soon as. As NannyAnny says maybe worth having a bag prepared for any last minute op dates, i say this a friend of mine had been waiting for an op for something else but got a call come now and have your covid test as your operation is tomorrow because she said she would take last minute appointments. So you may not need to isolate that long but I would advise anyone especially at the current time to do everything possible to protect yourself from covid and hopefully you will be having your operation very soon. Reduce where you go etc and try to keep in contact with family and friends by phone etc as much as you can, its not easy I know covid is a real worry for us all and where I live we are surrounded by the very high risk areas and being placed in it ourselves next week because our infection rate is increasing way too fast. Keep safe

sending you a big bear hug 

Hi NannyAnny, Thank you, you have cheered me up a bit. I’ve got my bag sitting almost  ready. So all I need to do is stop letting this little beggar mess with my head and emotions.

Take Care 

Angie ‍

Hi GBear Thank you for your help. You just reminded me that my consultant seemed to think that I wouldn’t have to isolate as we’ve been trying to keep my daughter safe because of her MS. Shopping is done online and the only time I‘ve  gone out has been for hospital appointments, though my CNS said I would have to isolate. The way things are here visiting family has been off limits for almost two months now. So when I think about it I’ve practically been isolating already. I just need to stop letting this little beggar mess with my head.

Take Care 

Angie ‍

Hi Angie

Sorry to hear that your on the waiting list but it sounds like your consultant's on the ball so keep your bag packed ready to go.

I received the confirmation letter's about my brachytherapy sessions at the latter part of last week, I'm nervous about them and keep wondering if my little buggers are waking up before they get nuked.

Had a mixed week, made even more progress after op, the only thing I avoid now is lifting, everything back to normal - 5 mile walks etc. Downside we had to have one of our dogs put to sleep on Wednesday, he had an op for a perineal hernia done last November and unfortunately it came back in May so he's been on borrowed time for a while but we couldn't see him in pain. I've cried buckets over him and the house seems quiet without him, our other two dogs seem depressed.

I so hate this year and want it to end!

Stay positive, it'll all be over sooner than you think! Sending you big hugs, Barb xx 

Hi Barb, So sorry about your dog, it’s funny how deep they can wheedle their way into our hearts. I wept buckets when we had to have our Collie put to sleep. He had severe arthritis in his back legs and hips but insisted on climbing the stairs to be near ours and the kids rooms. I used to wake up to him yelping in pain as he climbed the stairs, it was heartbreaking. We decided to put him out of his misery, I felt as if someone had ripped a bit of my heart out and felt guilty even though it was the right thing to do. So I know how you feel. I’m with you all the way the sooner this year is over the better, I’ll definitely be glad to see the back of it. I was checking the stuff for  my hospital and realised I’d need a different bag so asked hubby to get one off the top of wardrobe. He brings me in a backpack smaller than the bag I was using, he wasn’t too chuffed at having to put it back and bring down the wheeled weekend case. He looked at me and said “You’re not going on holiday you know.” I just looked at him and said “Uh! Yes I’m perfectly aware of that thank you.” Honestly sometimes I wonder what universe he’s in, let alone planet he’s on. Still he’s been brilliant taking over the cooking etc so I suppose I can’t complain too much. Hoping everything goes well for you with the Brachytherapy, and nukes the little beggar to hell on a one way ticket. 

Take Care

Angie‍

MrsBJH

sorry to hear you had to have one of the dogs put down Barb. I know we had our horse put down the same week i was diagnosed and it was definitely heartbreaking but it was the right thing to do and I think he was better now at peace. The others will of course sense the loss too i think animals have a really understanding of our feelings as well as their own. But now in doggy heaven and out of pain. You know animals are such apart of our family that we even have a group here on the community called Animals are family too forum some like to post pictures of their animals them that still with us and them that are not. Animals have a very unique way of healing us, our minds at least. Maybe worth a look if you want.

big bear hugs to you and the other two dogs

Thank you GBear, you always say the right things. I'll have a look at the page you mentioned. It's weird, Toby used to put his head against my tummy (he was the same size standing up) I wonder if he was telling me something?!