One year post op

HinLara Lou, yes, I knew it was around now and I have been thinking of you these past few days.  Younhave been through a lot this last year, not just the cancer either.  You have come a long way though and I'm so glad you are well.  Im sure your scan and appointments will give you further reassurance.  I am the same as you in that I don't get on here as often as I should.  But I think it's natural as time passes that we move on and it wouldn't be healthy to dwell.  Tomorrow will be one year since my diagnosis and I will never forget that horrible time.  If it hadn't been for you and the other ladies I really don't know how I would have coped.  And now hopefully our occasional presence here will be of some reassurance to those newly diagnosed and awaiting results or surgery, or going through treatment.  Xxx

How time goes fast, I can't believe its been a year Lara lou xx and hysteria53. Anniversary dates hold their own wobbles for us but also show how far we have come the support and knowing someone understands. It will be my two year anniversary of diagnosis on June 8th, ironically someone asked the other day why I remember it so well, well it was a bad week from the beginning we had to have the Horse put down on the Monday and I was diagnosed on Thursday. I didn't join the community as a contributor till after my hysterectomy in July but I know very well the support here is wonderful all the ladies are fantastic.

How lovely to hear from you both Lara lou xxhysteria53

And how good to hear how positive you feel and that you’re moving on. I think it’s really important for those who are still struggling through those months after the diagnosis and treatment to hear from people who’ve been there and come out the other side. There is hope! So thank you for taking the time to write. 

With love and hugs to you both - and to you GBear as you near your second anniversary. 

Xx

Hello Lara lou xx and hysteria53

Its so lovely to hear from you both and to read how well you’re both doing. It’s such an encouragement to us all. Lara lou xx you’ve come such a long way this year. I remember your first, anxious, terrified posts and I’m sure we can all see a huge difference in you. hysteria53 you have come a long way too and I know many here appreciate your support and kind words. Its great that you both continue to pop in and offer support to others and fabulous that you are both lookngi forward with a new found confidence and hope.Thank you for allowing us to share in the journey with you. Love and hugs to you both- I’m off to start the day with a little happy dance for you both xx

HelloGBear

Anniversaries of diagnosis, finishing treatment etc can be times of very mixed emotions. You’ve been through a lot this last couple of years. Sending you some gentle hugs as you approach your 2nd anniversary and hoping that the year ahead will be much better for you x

Hi Steph, yes we were  on the journey more or less together weren’t we, you were the first person who’s mind I tried to put at rest because I was so like you in my fears, it has been a really awful year for me as you say losing my brothers father in law in jan then losing two friends in April just two weeks apart, it’s seeing the sadness that makes me realise I’m lucky to be here and to keep thinking “what if “ is somehow disrespectful to those poor people, if that makes sense, I do intend to be stronger mentally , what will be will be and then that does not always mean bad, plus I want my mum to enjoy her life as she is getting older and I don’t want her worrying Cos I’m worrying , so that’s it, cancer will not scare me anymore , I do think being off here is much healthier for both of us but still come on here and there to help others if we can, big hugs to you Steph, you have done amazingly well this past year xx

Thank you gbear, you are right dates really do set the wobbles off don’t they, two years on for you, wow that must feel good in a way, I know you have other things going on but this part alone is good news , as for the support on here it is wonderful as are all the ladies, can’t agree with you more my lovely, xx

Aww thank you so much, what a lovely thing to say, it’s ladies like you who have helped put me back on an even keel, your sheer time and patience alone, I hope one day I can say yep I feel mentally as I did and no longer living in fear, that is my aim this year so watch this space lol, cancer took my womb but I won’t allow it to take my sanity, from now on I’m calling the shots, hope you are still doing ok with your trial , what is the next course of action for you my lovely xx

Aww bless you fairycake, thank you so much, I’m definitely in a better place than I was a year ago, my aim  is to get better and better mentally, I’ll show this dam cancer lol, keep dancing lovely lady, hugs and love right back at you xx

Hi Lara lou xx

I have no doubt you’ll get there. Grab hold of that sanity and do something completely mad! 

I am still on the trial but maybe not for too long after a dodgy scan this week. The tumours they’re targeting in my liver have shrunk but there’s something fishy growing around one of the major blood vessels in my thorax. An MRI scan next week should give more info. If I have to come off this trial my consultant says she has another one up get sleeve. 

Live in hope! 

Xx