Emotional

Hi

you are being entirely normal with your emotions at least once you have your scan you will feel your moving ahead a bit. I'm in the middle of my treatment and I constantly go from feeling positive to going to a really dark place in mind. I can change by the hour, you can't be positive all the time this is a really hard thing this cancer to cope with. I too am absolutely terrified of hospital procedures but somehow you will get through . Everybody told me not to think about it but which i found impossible  but keeping myself busy helped and before my operation I tried meditation this really helped . We are all here for you 

Lots of love 

Peacock62 xxx

Hi LMF57

I will say the same things Peacock62 has said. I am almost 12 weeks post op and still have ups and down days/hours! I had various scans before chemo/radiotherapy and felt like I just wanted to get on with things. It is a difficult time. My sister had breast cancer, so had her op first. She kept saying you’ll feel xy and z, which wasn’t relevant to bowel cancer. Any cancer diagnosis is awful, but when you know you’ve got to live with it for a while, it’s unbelievable. Do stay in touch with the community as it really will help. I had keyhole assisted surgery which means a less invasive op. Keep yourself as fit and healthy as you can, mentally and physically. Cancer messes as much with your mental health as your physical one. Very best of luck to you.