He has gone so suddenly

Oh I am so sorry to hear this. 

That's lovely that you were able to have Christmas day and your anniversary together. 

Thinking of you and sending lots of hugs xx

Thank you. I just don't know what to do with myself x

I cant believe it I am so sorry .Your posts have been so inspirational you always tried to do your best and help other people too no wonder you feel numb .It just seems to me that ever since we became carers all the rule books have been thrown out the window quite hard to deal with when you dont know what the hell is going on .You keep going we will support you just keep posting how you feel its going to be really tough the next few weeks but from your posts I can see you are a strong lady and you will get through it . Take care of yourself xx

Thank you granny sue. I am doing my best. Work have been brill even at the weekend! I will keep going and I am.determined care for carers will improve locally. I will need to fill my time somehow! I feel so lost. My children are brill and my son is sorting some of the paperwork for me. His work skills are amazing and he is so calm. He really has done me credit and my daughter has helped practically, cooking etc. Off to start funeral arrangements today. His vicar has been in touch and wants to pray with me. I am unsure but he believed. She is a nice lady anyway. Xxx

Bless you and your family . 

So sorry to hear your news x

Thank you Issy xxx

Dear Alexa...I didn’t see this before. So very sorry to hear this news.  You must be shattered.  Look after yourself and I wish you very very well in your recovery. As many others have said... I know you did your total best for him. Much e-love xxxxx

Thank you all. It has been very hard but I have arranged a lovely funeral for next Wednesday. The undertaker had done him proud and he looks so relaxed and peaceful. Absolutely lovely and healthy! His wedding ring was lost in the hospital mortuary which devasted me but now found!! Thank goodness. 

I have gone back to work this week before the funeral as without him I didn't have enough to do and felt lost. It helped me but I have next week off to say goodbye. 

I won't let his cancer beat us!!! I am hoping to provide support for carers in the future xxx