i found myself in a place where I was the happiest I have ever been in my whole life. Then my partner got diagnosed with terminal cancer and she unfortunately passed away in November. I am still struggling to come to terms with that and I don’t know what to do to make things seem even that slightly bit easier. Some days I feel like I don’t want to carry on because then I can be back with her. I have tried to get some help to talk to someone about this but when I first tried to get this help it was nearly a year wait to see someone. Obviously now there’s no chance of seeing anyone with the current situation. I am finding that hard too as I see reminders of her all over the house, which I never want to forget, but being on my own I just sit and think about everything.
this is the first time I have used anything like this, I was just wondering if anyone could give me any advice as to anything that could help?
Hi Martin,
Boring tomorrow, I have been asked to swap my shift! So work!!! Lol
Have a good day yourself
Take care Alison xxx
Hi AT
Hope you managed to have your shower and cooked your lunch, and spent a lovely afternoon in the garden, the weather has been lovely.
If it had been raining the past few weeks and this lock down, think we would all have been committed.by now.
Tomorrow is another day.
Take Care Elliexx
Hi Ellie
are you feeling better now
and I’m already mad
take care
Martin x
Hi Martin
Yes i am, think i was just so worn out trying to do everything cannot do it anymore, i need my sons here to help me, and they will, so took it easy yesterday just reading, thanks for asking.
You did make me laugh already mad, do not worry think in this journey we are feel like that at times, kept saying i am cracking up, the amount of talking i do to my hubby is CRAZY, lol.
Have a good day.
Take Care Elliexx
Hi Ellie
I do find doing stuff she would hard like ringing people up sorting things out
I have not turned the washing a funny colour lately so that is good You have a couple of chill days
it will better one day I hope I still talk to her nothing wrong with that
have good day too
take care
Martin x
Hi everybody
How has everybody been You have all been very quiet this week have you all been keeping busy and being positive are you all okay
take care
Martin x
Good afternoon Martin!
been ok - a hard week and today finally was able to go and visit mums grave as they’ve reopened at weekends as of today. Was sad to see everything overgrown so fast.
Just can’t get out of my head how fast everything happened and how mum must have been feeling / thinking. Just gets harder and harder, not easier.
anyway the sun is out and have mowed mums lawn and cooked some of her favourites
hope you’re ok and everyone else is doing as well as can be?stay safe
ajay x
Hi Martin,
I've been checking the last couple of days and no posts! I thought everyone must be having a better time than me LOL.
How have you been?
I've been at work, off today so getting a few jobs done. Weather is lovely again so might go for long walk later. Not sleeping well at the moment, so feeling constantly tired which doesn't help my mood much.
Hope everyone is doing ok.
Ali x
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