First Birthday

Plum1972 1 hour ago

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So today would have been my husbands 56th birthday, he passed in January, I am not sure how I feel about it, the expectation this week seemed to be worse than how I feel today. It’s weird I don’t want to celebrate but feel it should be a day to honour him.

i thought I would be dreadful sad today but I feel lucky that I spent so much of my life with him and it was a an honour to walk with him through his cancer journey he was so brave and positive right until the end. I don’t have any regrets as a family we did him proud and although I miss him terribly I am glad he is no longer suffering and I Am am determined to try to live a life he would have wanted for us.

his philosophy was based on this quote I think

“It is like a finger pointing away to the moon. Don't concentrate on the finger, or you will miss all that heavenly glory.” (Bruce Lee ,his hero)

This was not what I was expecting to feel like but I am glad I am.

Vicki

PattyK 1 hour ago

Hello Vicki (from another Vicky)

That is a lovely way to remember your husband. When it was my husband Jay's first birthday without him I didn't know how to feel either but like yourself I looked on it as being thankful that we had had lots of previous birthdays to share together. I am 3 years in now from losing him in June 2023 but I tend not to `mark` these occasions and just remember him with fondness and I can remember those times now with a smile. They will always be with you in some way or another. Take Care.

Vicky x

Breton 11 minutes ago

I sometimes wake up and think this day isn't feeling so bad . But it usually catches up with me by the end of the day. So don't be surprised if your mood changes. Maybe for some the anticipation of these special/ significant days coming up is worse . I wish I could just be grateful that We had so many years together . If only he had not been suffering for so many of them it might have been easier to remember with fondness. I should be glad he's no longer suffering ,but all I think about is that I want him back and I didn't do enough to keep him here. Hopefully with more time passing I might get to that point. I'm trying to focus on other things ,but it's not easy when the mind keeps on ruminating over the regrets I have . I hope your day is an easy one .

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