So my best friend got engaged. Jelous? Yep. Not the engagement bit, I'm just really jealous that somebody else has something great going on in their life and I don't. I feel like a bitch and rightly so.
I have gratefully accepted my role as Cheif Bridesmaid and despite what I've just said I am genuinely happy for her and her boyfriend and I hope they have a long, happy life together. So I will instead focus on…
So Saturday night I got a phonecall from my dad. My dad ringing me never results in anything good.
This had happened:
5mph more and he wouldn't have missed that tree. When the car rolled onto it's side it was about 3 foot away from it. You can see just from the tyre tracks alone how lucky he was. He thinks he had a blow out on one of his tyres and before he could say anything to his mate sat next to him, they were…
So I've been feeling a little bit better this week. My mood swings seem to have settled down, my sleeping and eating have pretty much returned to normal and I can think straight.
One thing that hasn't changed though is that I'm still not enjoying people's company very much and I've been keeping my friends at arms length - kinda cutting ties with people. I know I shouldn't do this, I know I'll live to regret it, but…
One thing I do think is important for me to mention here is my history of depression. I just want to let people know on here who read my blog that I had depression for nearly 9 years and I know all my signs. I know when I'm about to fall and I know when I need to get help before I cant get back up again.
I very often get people worrying about me when I have periods like this, where I'm not sleeping/eating etc. Unfortunately…
I''ve had a very strange couple of days.
On Wednesday evening after work I went to see my mum and it's probably the first time I've seen her 'down' in a long time. I know she was trying really hard to be enthusiastic and chatty and pleased to see her daughter, but I could tell deep down she was tired, in discomfort and probably just wanted to be alone. I was only there for an hour or so and it was…
