So I've been feeling a little bit better this week. My mood swings seem to have settled down, my sleeping and eating have pretty much returned to normal and I can think straight.
One thing that hasn't changed though is that I'm still not enjoying people's company very much and I've been keeping my friends at arms length - kinda cutting ties with people. I know I shouldn't do this, I know I'll live to regret it, but people are already sick of hearing about my mum, I can tell. They've already got to a point where they're dreading me mentioning it or bringing it up. I've decided it's going to be easier to just remove these people from my life myself rather than wait for them all to get tired of me and fade away.
Gosh that sounded a bit depressive - it's not like that. I'm a realist. I'm just whittling it right down to the people I know I can count on. Those people so far consist of myself, my sister, mum dad, family and partner.
Work is getting easier, I'm finding effective coping methods to get me through the day and because I'm sleeping and eating again properly, I don't feel ill all day long :)
My sister is staying with us this weekend and I'm really really looking forward to it. I like having things to look forward to.
I am not however, looking forward to Christmas this year which is another blog post entirely - one for another time :)
Until then, I hope you are all well. Thank you again for your continued support x
