Hello! I have been recently diagnosed with Stage 3 cancer. They fully removed my entire stomach 1 month ago. I had a 3.4mm tumor on the bottom of my stomach and the lymph nodes on the top of my stomach were also positive for cancer, hence why they ended up removing my entire stomach. It has been a hard month, but I am back at work and learning to eat. I do not do chemo, but they are monitoring me.
I am terrified, angry, and sad. I knew something was wrong with me for a year, but I always was told I was too young. I am upset that all my friends are graduating college, on vacation, and going into grad school. I think the most silliest thing I am angry about is that seeing my friends drink smoothies and slushies while I sit at home and have to be careful. I feel like my life has been robbed from me. I haven't even gotten married, applied to my dream grad school, and most of all, raise children.
How do you guys handle this? Some days I feel like crying. I step out of work to cry in the hospital chapel (I work as a microbiologist). Some days I feel invincible and happy. I don't know how to feel. I thought I had my entire life ahead of me.
