Hello
I have my last FLOT tomorrow, 4 in all, I have also have 2 rounds of Carbo and Etoposide. I have my CT scan on the 1st Feb as they plan is to operate so I have fingers and toes crossed they I will still be on this pathway.
The Flot has been tough as people say, the Oxy-legs were terrible!! the two week turn around has given me about 3 days of normality. I would like to thank those that offered side effect advice as it really helped me to be proactive with the Meds.
The change for me is from Oct to early December I was not able to eat food, shakes only. I am now eating normally, I have attempted spicy food, like a curry 
. I find I need to eat more often or I get like an empty discomfort, not sure what that's about? My sternum feels sore sometimes also? fingers crossed these are gastral related to the growth but I guess it must of shrunk as I can eat.
I am so looking forward to some weeks without Chemo but also apprehensive, it will be back to that waiting place, and this is it, which pathway? I wish I had not been told IT was high grade, this bit really sticks in my head!!
What lovely blue skies I have in the south at the moment, beautiful 
Evening CB
Not long ago and I would have been soundo at this time of night. Yes indeed I do have feelings and I am, “what’s that” silly ones are actually feeling my bones and body without 3 st of fat wrapped round it 
. On a serious not, yes I have actually used the breathing apparatus, when I go for walks I try to remember to fill my lungs several times. I still have numbness on my right side and I have weird sensations around my right side. I have spoken to the team as it did worry me, I have been assured it is the healing process of the muscles and nerves. I do not know what I would do without the team. Having check ups even if it is reassurance is a good thing, Was that your first chemo or post op chemo when you had those full feelings?
Swimming is good, I am self conscious of my skinny legs, flat bum and hurried wrinkly skin with the rapid weight drop but I just say, to hell with it, once I am in the water it feels good, I get out of breath swimming but in a good way, my scares are covered by my swimsuit. Once you have done it once you will be fine. I was not a water babe, disliked it even, now it is peaceful and so relaxing.
Sunshine in November, just what’s needed before winter sets in, will that be a year from the start of your chemo?
now it is time to sleep, nite
TC, Jennie 
Evening Dean
This is good news, so glad you were able to see your Oncologist and get a better understanding of the situation, I can feel your fighting power coming of the page, 
. We are lucky to be on this trial, seems unfair for those that cannot be offered it. Let’s hope the outcome is for regular scans like other cancers get.
It is also good that you can have immunotherapy as some people cannot? I am not sure who can and who cannot?
So glad it has been caught early, the chemo will blast it. When do you start Dean.
I am going to get some shut eye now
take care, Jennie
