Diagnosed with triple negative breast cancer in November. So far I have had 4 of my PC treatments and 2 immunotherapy (I had reactions to both paclataxil and pembro) and I am struggling with anxiety.
I can’t stop crying and can’t see an end to all this. I have another 8 of these treatments then 4 EC cycles before surgery and then more radiotherapy/chemo/immunotherapy.
Ive heard EC is worse than PC and I’m struggling with this. I don’t know if I can cope! Even the 6 months to surgery seems a million miles away.
I have a fiance and good support network but I feel so lonely like nobody understands what I’m going through and I’m just sitting each day willing the day away.
I spoke to MacMillan but didn’t feel like I got a lot from it. They told me what I’m feeling is normal and not to be so hard on myself etc but I know all this but don’t know how to deal with my emotions and get through it. I am usually a strong person and don’t know what’s happened to me, all I do is mope and cry
How do I get through this?!
I had 4 doses of EC in 3-weekly cycles. I did more or less feel normal for the last 10 days or so of each cycle. Before that it was tiredness, headaches, diarrhoea and loss of taste, plus I particularly disliked the bone pain that came with the Filgrastim.

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Im only 4 days post 1st infusion and struggling. Really tired and weak and breathless, feel like my legs are going to give way. Horrid taste in mouth too and not much appetite. Struggling to eat as healthy as I should be!
I had pegfilgrastin on Wednesday and so far no bone pain but I presume it starts later?
Did you find the effects to be cumulative? I’m worried about another 3 of these!
And that’s before surgery, radiotherapy and then more immunotherapy and chemo!
xx
I found I was able to manage the cycles a bit better as time went on, I could pre-empt an issue based on when it happened previously. I hope you feel better soon.
Unfortunately I have metastatic TNBC. had surgery followed by 24 weeks of chemo initially (4 EC then 12 weeks of Paclitaxel). Before I got to the end, liver mets were found and I then had pembrolizumab plus NAB-Paclitaxel as well as radiotherapy and a couple of ablation procedures on my liver. I have been in remission for the last year so awfully grateful for the pembro, even though it caused a raft of issues.

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Sorry to hear you are metastatic but pleased you are in remission and doing well!
I have also been on pembro since starting my journey in December. I had 12 weekly nab paclataxil alongside. My main issue now with the pembro is the horrid itchy rash I get in my face! Feel like I’m on constant steroids and steroid cream! As soon as it goes it comes back! X
I had a rash on my chest after the 4th infusion. Later on I got kidney nephritis, thyroid loss, pneumonitis and had to stop treatment. But it dealt with the cancer.

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