It was just over 2 years ago I found this site
And everyone here ‘got cancer ‘. They got it in too many ways. And supported everyone with it in innumerable ways.And some of them are no longer here to share their stories.
But I am.
This time 2 years ago I was licking mental, emotional and physical wounds totally unaware that there was even more poop to come . But I was lifted by people I have never met and some who have become forever friends on here .
I listened to music that helped soothe my time through the ‘poop’. Over the last 2 years I’ve attempted to listen to that music but to no avail it anchored me in a time I wanted to forget . It dragged me into depths that I was fearful of revisiting .
But ...., luckily for me there is always a BUT ... over the past few days that piece of music that sustained me has once again been one I can turn to and listen to with a resting not fearful heart.
I write this to everyone who is in the deep mire of breast cancer poop. I write this to say for many many of us this is a window in our life. Open it. See it for what it is . And know that you will finally walk through it into pastures new .
No ...... you won’t be the same person . You will have empathy and understanding above and beyond the next person.
Under no circumstances let it define you.
I’m still standing
Sustaining hugs to those on the path
Leolady56
Hello and great big hugs to you Leolady56 - I can relate to all you say. I am here some 2 years 4 months!!!
During my first night I sat and googled and googled, in the depths of despair at what would happen to me....
Then I found this site and my goodness me what a God send the amazing people on this site were to me - the lovely people on this site helped me far more than they would ever know and far more than family or nurses 
.
You lovely people on here became my friends and got me through some of the most worrying times of my life.
I stay here now to 'try' in any small way to pay back the kindest that was shown to me, to try in any small way to help anyone else coming along this path . I will never forget that feeling of how I first felt, how lost and alone I was, I so hate to think of others feeling the same
As for the music, I am with you here, but, sadly, yet I can't get myself to listen to music I used to listen to - just can't do it, if I put the radio on all the songs played seem so sad and set me off again.... so, I tend to listen to talking radio stations, mainly LBC London on DAB radio, this gets me thought many a night hour. I am sure in time i will listen to more.
(I must just say, a couple of my choices of music that I can't listen to yet is David Bowie!!! and Queen!!! .... really seems silly when you think of their type of music)
Thinking of you my lovely friend and sending great big hugs .....
You are one amazing lady .... now galloping 
you must go and do, slowly, but surely xxxxx
