Has it come back?

It's been a while since I've written on here myself. I went through something similar and found myself looking on here for similar situations.

I had a right sided mastectomy with recon and full node clearance in Oct 18. Since then I currently have grade 3 contrapulization (basically my right boob has become hard and hurts every day)

This year due to pains in my chest which led to further investigations an xray showed enlarged lymph nodes in my sternum. I then had a biopsy in this area which came back fine but then said they wanted to monitor them. 3 months later had another PET scan which showed no change so they were happy with that but it picked up an enlarged lymph in my left axillary (non cancer side). So again I had to go for another biopsy which thankfully also came back clear.

The surgeon and BC nurses seem to think I have reactive nodes caused by the implant. To me this makes sense as before all this cancer stuff my body has never liked foreign objects and has reacted adversely. I still have an expander in and was meant to have surgery again to remove some scarring and replace the implant, however each time an investigation begins into something else it keeps pushing it back.

I like you had convinced myself of the worst but I was wrong. For me and I'm sure many others the constant fear of recurrence is always there but somehow I've managed to get by but it's by no means easy!!

Yes, it isn't easy. I am trying to be positive but as we all know, it's bloody terrifying every time something feels wrong. 

Am so glad to hear that you're ok, and this has given me a bit of reassurance so thank you for that.