Feeling vulnerable

Hi Jamborae!  I’m 49 too and im so sorry to hear you had a bad day. I found my lump in March and started chemo in May. I finished my chemo last Tuesday and will have surgery in January. I too was overwhelmed and panicky before all this started. I will always remember my first day of going for chemo. I felt like a little child.  But please please just take each day as it comes and don’t look too far ahead as it’s too much to deal with. I can say that having the chemo wasn’t as bad as I expected, it was mainly the tiredness that was hard.  I have come out of it feeling very grateful for the treatment I received and the wonderful people I met along the way. Be kind to yourself and don’t expect to much of yourself. Rest as much as you can. You will be fine. Treatment is so advanced now. The medical staff are great. I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow. The sun will shine for you again. Take care and let me know how you get on. Xxx

Hi Jamborae!  I’m 49 too and im so sorry to hear you had a bad day. I found my lump in March and started chemo in May. I finished my chemo last Tuesday and will have surgery in January. I too was overwhelmed and panicky before all this started. I will always remember my first day of going for chemo. I felt like a little child.  But please please just take each day as it comes and don’t look too far ahead as it’s too much to deal with. I can say that having the chemo wasn’t as bad as I expected, it was mainly the tiredness that was hard.  I have come out of it feeling very grateful for the treatment I received and the wonderful people I met along the way. Be kind to yourself and don’t expect to much of yourself. Rest as much as you can. You will be fine. Treatment is so advanced now. The medical staff are great. I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow. The sun will shine for you again. Take care and let me know how you get on. Xxx

Ok , so you were scared , upset and alone , but you did it , you have proved to yourself you can tackle anything , you are great , be proud of yourself , best wishes for tomorrow 

Hi Jamborae,

I think that day would have made me meltdown even on a normal day!

I'm at a similar stage as you. I know chemo is first then surgery ??radiotherapy and I get my treatment plan on Friday. It's a crap road to have to travel, but I'm trying to take it one step at a time. So many people on here have given me support and one thing that keeps being said in different ways is that once you know and get started things get easier. You have a plan, a bit of control hopefully and fear of the unknown is often worse than the reality. I certainly have my really bad moments  but I'm trying to stay positive and the surgeon has said that I am (fingers crossed) curable. I hope tomorrow goes ok for you and you get some positive news and a plan.

Hugs! Xxx

it’s like a conspiracy isn’t it.  The universe detects your level of stress and conspires today tip you over the edge.

Last year when my hubby in hospital for 3 months I was on my way to work early at 7.30am do I could finish early to drive to Cardiff straight from work (an hour away) so I could be home earlier in evening and actually have a sit down and relax.  So just about to pull into work car park and tyre pressure warning light comes on.  So drive (carefully) to petrol station and at that ungodly hour there is an old man slowly checking his tyres!  I waited 15 minutes while he fussed!  My tyre pressure was very low so filled it with air then went to my usual tyre place which thankfully open at 8am!  I’m now 3 mikes away from work and 6 from my house.    Then the bad news the tyre size was not a stock size do they had to order did next day.  The tyre was knackered so car not driveable ! Rang my brother whose business nearby and he said he’d ring his mobile tyre man !  He too said it’s a special order.  So I had to leave car there, get lift hone from my brother, borrow daughters car and got into work at 9.30sm!  So much for early start/finish !  Then took next day off work as hubby been told he could come home for  weekend and wanted picking up at 2pm!  Car ready at 12pm had lift to garage and off I went to collect hubby!  We then discovered that hubby couldn’t get in car due to his back and neck brace and the car being low down!  He was determined to find hone so I had to fiddle with seats and manhandle him in!!! I couldn’t take the stress anymore do impulse bought a brand new car that was higher up!!