and welcome to the group nobody wants to join. I understand the anxiety as waiting for results is really the worst time of this process. You feel angry and impotent as there’s nothing you really can do except wait and (worst of all) think.
But behind the scenes your team really and truly are waiting themselves, Path labs need to be sure of all the results of your tests before the whole team can decide the very best course of treatment for you, personally planned.
Keep on hoping that your results mean a straightforward plan, once you know the plan then even any wait for that to begin are nowhere near as bad.
Keep posting as there’s so much help on this group!
I know Dreamthief has posted to you and suggested phone numbers of Macmillan and Samaritans who really are just at the other end of your phone to help too
Isn't it strange that we sometimes feel suicidal when probably what we're afraid of is dying.
No one has said you are going to die of your cancer, it is a thought and thoughts can change.
This waiting feels like torture but this time is what is needed for the experts to formulate the best possible treatment plan for you. It may not feel like it but we are fortunate to have cancers that have been well researched and treatments have been refined over the years.
We are all scared s$#%&#@ss sometimes, usually at 2 in the morning. Anxiety saps your energy, you are not weak just frightened. Nothing has changed physically since you were told you have cancer. You are the same soul but with more information. All your emotions churning can cause physical symptoms. Keep talking to us, we will talk back and you will get through this.
I was just wondering who Charlie and Lola were...your kids or grandchildren or even pets? But whoever they are they obviously mean something to you. Now when things seem quite intolerable for you, it's those you love that you have to keep going for.
Today and tomorrow morning and every day until the Sun comes out again ( and it will ) you have to keep going for the people who love you, care about you...or even you're just a fixture in their life.
Keep going, put one foot in front of another, things will get better xxx
Charlie and Lola are the hero and heroine in a series of fabulous children's books. It would be fab if you have relatives with those names too Charlieandlola . Have you got grandchildren?
I'd like a couple of dogs called that as well. It would sound so cool calling them!
So just looked at your profile Charlie the very much dog are you Lola ? I do love a guessing game . Also two granddaughters who are your life !
I would imagine they are yours too.
what can I say well all of the above plus some more .....read my profile grade3 HER2 after mammogram recall then wham masectomy and here I still am undergoing treatment .
Point is still here, still getting out and about with family and dog ( Dexter ) with no intention of going anywhere !
You will find as we all have we are stronger than we think and we I'll kick cancer in it's Ar*e cos we can ..and you will get thru this .
This is the worst time waiting once you get your treatment plan things will get better you will be able to feel more in control .
In the meantime do what ever you need to distract yourself from waiting ,come on here browse around find threads you would enjoy chatting in .If you can't sleep there us one called Awake which meets others may be Awake as well . We're a bit mad tho lack of sleep .
please don't google usually wrong come on here to ask people who have been there .
Yes, Charlie is my dog and lola my sons labrador. My beautiful granddaughters, imogen and madelyne. I'm a state at the moment so terrified. It's been the worst month of my life, since getting the mammogram recall. I Google all the time, looking at videos of things I know arent helping. I cant sleep at all. Love Charlieand lola (julie xxxx)
I'd read your profile Charlieandlola and completely missed you'd a dog called Charlie so forget all after hello on my last post!! Brain a little scrambled. Been helping at an indoor dog show and fair this morning. Not as well supported as we'd hoped in aid of our local dog rescue.
It’s good you voiced your darkest thoughts. At the moment you probably feel it’s out of your control and you are probably trying to make your family feel ok about your diagnosis while hiding how scared you are. I think we all have our huge panic, often worse at night. I’m 4 years on and still have occasional ‘what ifs’.
Once your treatment starts you regain some control and will feel calmer. Keep posting on here as there is always someone about to talk to xx
I'm a nightmare to va around, I suppose as well there seems so much time between appointments. I wont start chemo till week beginning the 9th December. It's too long and I can feel this disease eating me away xx
